SM was thinking about you last night, did you get out of car park ok? 
I know how you felt, after 5 years of not driving I'm scared to go in those car parks and tend to only go into town when I have H with me so can go in (bigger) parent and child spaces 
You are right, I am low. To quote SM, I'm stressed and DH annoying me and he is stressed and I'm annoying him. Bottom line, I have no respect for him and I know will NEVER trust him again. No basis for long term relationship. Its just a matter of time, just damage limitation (for kids) ther is never a good time 
Got a bit of compensaion coming our way in next few weeks (following claim against airline for our 23 hour delay last year) so that might help a bit as money is a big issue for him. He is constantly moaning that we don't have money left over at the end of the month but can't see how lucky we are having a nice house that will be mortgage free in less than 5 years. He is constantly looking at negatives which is really dragging me down.
On the plus side, its noticebly lighter in the mornings and evenings which I think is lifting my mood plus, I have my first interview in over 10 years! Its for a job as a student support assistant using my signing language skills. Its only 9 hours pw (2 mornings/afternoons) but its just what I need. Interview on 13th and I desperately want it. Down side is its a 56 mile drive each way (its in Hampshire) so I won't actually make any money once I've paid for petrol but I need it, I need to be working again, doing something constructive which I think will help with my confidence which DH has destroyed.
Right, off to take kids swimming, trying to do lots of fun positive things with them to get away from DH's moaning, it is affecting them too 