Hedjwitch I am glad you enjoyed the performance- doing things like that can take us outside of ourselves for a while, and give us a welcome break.
I didn't think I was a ballet fan at all, sitting through dreary professional performances, all net tutus, I found quite twee.
That changed when I saw a contemporary production of the Crucible 5 years ago. Like the production you saw it was dark, gritty and powerful. I didn't know ballet could be like this.
Craftycorvid it seems gardening has decided that it is for you! Is your OH growing coriander from seed? I would be interested in how that goes. I have tried, but plants seem to bolt so easily. Too fragile for outdoors here in scotland, and doesn't seem to like the warm front porch either!
I went through a phase some years ago of planting things from my spice cupboard- whole seeds and beans- I laid them out in damp tissue to germinate, and many did. Of course unpredictable results, many of these spices are hybrids.
I am in need of support- any candles or wise words would be appreciated.
My mother now has her flat at sheltered housing ready to go,, but is so full of drama. OH and I have worked hard to get her new place ready we have taken days off work and my mother signed the tenancy some weeks ago, but is in a flap.
She told me this morning she has changed her mind, and has been slamming drawers and doors this morning as she has no clean clothes to wear. She packed everything up and we dropped it at her flat, but she is so super cross right now. I understand that she may feel anxious about the move, but it will be good for her, and indeed the whole family. I am very confident that she will love it.
My mother and I have never discussed feelings or emotions ever if we could then I can give reassurance.
So instead she is angry, and has said some pretty hurtful things to me today.
I am trying to rise to the bait, but it is hard.
Thankfully her day centre called to offer her a cancellation today, and the minibus has picked her up.
I had a word with one of the carers/organisers letting her know that my mother is finding this tough, so she has agreed to raise the subject in conversation.
Several of her day centre buddies already live in the same complex and love living there.
I have been so full of adrenalin and cortisol for days, I am exhausted.
I also have a meeting today with a financial/benefit advisor to fill out some new forms for my son's disability payments. I find that so hard too, being forced to talk about the situation is very hard, and I know I will cry at some point- so plenty tissues to hand !
I am so in need of respite right now, but I am not sure when the space for that will come.