Sorry to hear you've been struggling @Hedjwitch, that sounds really tough. Not at all what you need when it's already a situation you don't want to be dealing with. I hope it completes quickly for you so it stops feeling like an open wound is being poked 
I've also been feeling quite tired recently - I don't know if it's the changing climate or if it's just the seasonal energy, but either way I've been feeling quite introspective and low on effort levels. Going out and doing things and having conversations with people have felt both overwhelming and tiring recently. Plus of course it's getting very dark so early now, that also discourages me from going out after work.
At the same time, I seem to be surrounded by the theme of death - in the news, in all forms of media, with anniversaries of loved ones passing and even strange, small things in the world around me; I walked to work earlier this week and there was a long chicken (?) bone on the pavement in front of me. Probably to be expected as Samhain draws near. Although it's not my favourite sabbat, I've booked the day off work so I can properly enjoy it as I have some holiday that needs using up. Still deciding exactly what I'll do - DP (atheist, non-pagan) is keen to do something special together on Samhain although he'll be working through the day, and we have some films that we traditionally watch. Not horror films though as that isn't my thing! I actually feel as though the horror film industry with its commercialised gore and cruelty and its obsession with Halloween and sometimes pagan themes somehow disrespects Samhain, which I see as a time for honouring and respect. Not sure if anyone else feels the same?
I've also been doing a lot of honouring of ancestors and my beloved dead at this time. A photo of DDog who passed over a decade ago has pride of place on the mantelpiece all year round, and I placed some pine cones on either side of the photo frame last month as the Romans saw pine cones as symbols of immortality because they're long-lasting, and that symbolism has always resonated with me. They were sometimes depicted on Roman gravestones. I've been lighting incense for ancestors and beloved dead most days and reflecting on my gratitude for everything they loved, fought and worked for. I think it's quite touching to see myself as a living testament of everything they fought for and as proof that they were here and that their suffering and struggles were not for nothing. Perhaps some of you feel the same in your own reflections.
I'm curious to know what kind of spellwork most of you perform around Samhain? To me it seems like protection or banishing spells would be the most natural, but I may be wrong. Possibly health spells or even weight spells too if they're cast with the intention of 'banishing' ill health. I'd love to know! Has anyone ever had a dumb supper for Samhain? This also seems like a natural time to work with bones (for those that do, I know it's not something everyone feels comfortable with), fossils (I have a great collection of mosasaur teeth in particular) and runes, as those make me personally feel connected to my Anglo-Saxon and Scandinavian ancestors, which is lovely.