Whilst I don't deny that there are both good & bad people in the Catholic church & that sometimes terrible things have been done, I believe that is true for all faiths & all non faith based groups of people.
When I have been at my lowest, when I have been all alone with nothing to eat, nowhere to go & literally sleeping under a tree in a park, or on a roundabout on a quieter stretch of a busy road just off a motorway with nothing but a sleeping bag, what got me through was my faith & knowing that even when nobody else cared, my God did.
Looking back at how unbelievably naïve I was, it's hard to believe someone wasn't watching over me, because I'm frankly lucky to have survived some of the situations I ended up in.
When I reached out, the only people who accepted me were those of my faith even though I hadn't practiced for some time & they reached back with compassion.
When I was in a position to do so, I became one of the people who was sometimes the one who reached back.
Yes, there are some Catholics who do not live a life completely in line with the teachings of the Catholic church.
It's probably most of them.
I'm certainly not perfect & not everything I have done is text book as it should have been.
I have met many truly devout (but not perfect by any means) Catholics in my life, who do their best to live a life of service as they struggle with being only human.
You generally only find out by accident though as they don't shout about it.
So many quiet acts of kindness happen every day which are never acknowledged.
There is a lot of unacknowledged good done in the community of Catholics around the world.
I have experienced hatred for the crime of being Catholic.
I have been mocked for owning a rosary (by someone who found it by snooping in my stuff), for wearing a crucifix, for feeling uncomfortable with anti Catholic sentiment that is so casually thrown around.
I don't understand why that is supposed to be okay.
I don't meet Catholics who mock other faiths.
I have a deeply engrained respect for life which was instilled in me through my faith.
Underneath all my imperfections as a regular human being, I have a certainty, gifted to me by my faith, that I am not completely alone, that I am not completely unloved & that there is good in me which my faith wants me to allow to shine.
There have been times when I would not have lived to see the morning without the small, but real comfort it brings to me.
I am also not alone in feeling that way.