Sorry to hear you are feeling deflated queenrollo I hear you. I wish I lived closer we could huggle round a brew and have a natter.
I am feeling a little similar, even my yoga class this morning did little to lift the fug.
I have made myself some ceremonial cacao stirred with intention and just sat down to book some forthcoming witchy events. My woman's circle had plenty spaces last week, now the first available is December.
My mother has just announced that my cousin and her OH are coming to visit tomorrow- they live a few hours away- I simply can't face them. Christians ( so my mother has an expectation of pagan items removed) and the conversation all so one upman- cars, home improvements, holidays, new jewelry, events at the golf club.
I suspect I was expected to make lunch tomorrow, serve, be demure and sweet, not say the f word, not turn conversations onto "weird" topics.
As it has only just been announced I have invented a dental appointment- a lie, but needs must. I have also suggested mother takes them to lunch somewhere local, we have a few ultra posh castle/afternoon tea/ overpriced crap food type places nearby.
I just cannot sit through three hours of conversation with them. I will take myself off for a solo forest walk instead.
queenrollo you can always pop into this thread for understanding, we care, we listen, we can see your bright shining energy.