Hello sisters, I'm sorry I've been quiet again - there has been an avalanche of bad news for people I love, topped off by the loss of a magical friend of mine from wizard school on Sunday. I only really saw her at those events, but she was so lovely, she was barely 30, and was such a vibrant presence in the world that I can't quite believe she isn't here any more.
But I'm trying very hard not to wallow in sadness but instead to really deeply feel the privilege of getting older and being alive and able to do things that light me up. It definitely gives perspective to problems!
@queenrollo sending you good wishes and keeping you in my thoughts - I hope it is ruled out and speedily so you're not left waiting too long - apprehension is the worst feeling. And sadly no Glastonbury for me but always up for a cuppa if we can find a sensible halfway mark and you ever fancy it! Have a bloody brilliant time 💙
To go back a bit in the thread to journalling, writing is up there with water as my highest magic - I write every day, usually by hand and in the morning but as long as it happens at some point in the day the timing isn't massively important. I've always written like this - regardless of how I feel and what's happening in my life, good or bad. What you described @speakout is how I've often found it - like meditation and a download, but what comes out of my pen is very often not what I'd have said or even knew I was feeling, it's a kind of magic I've never been able to replicate elsewhere. I don't often read it back but I do keep all my journals after burning my teenage ones and hugely regretting it because they were part of the story of my life. My loft is getting very full 😂
In my coven of three we are all writers and one of them described it as her direct connection to the divine, except she never quite knows what will come out so she approaches with caution! I'm so pleased you've found some journalling works for you - and I've found over the years that the key is not to ever make it a should.
Sending love to all of you feeling lonely - virtual hugs coming your way.
In happier news the sunshine has brought me out of my burnout hole a little, and I've been out experimenting with magical self portraits in golden hour. I've acquired a trio of absolutely beautiful quirky witch hats so will be including those in a future shoot 😍 plus Netflix has released a documentary about USA professional mermaids, some of whom I've come across in my mermaid communities, and I was very emotional watching it and realising my weird little obsession might actually get its moment in the sun!!
And today was my Gran's 94th birthday so I've been with family at mum's all day, we threw her an afternoon party and it was wonderful - and exactly the healing I needed to help come to terms with loss.
Sorry for the downer - I am ok, just each loss shakes my foundations a bit and it takes a while to regain my footing and remember what the point of life is. But as @speakout so perfectly put it upthread, we've already got a ticket so we may as well enjoy the ride!