So, I grew up a catholic and have pretty much shunned the Catholic Church since been a teenager saying God does not exist etc and would not get my kids baptised much to the dismay of my parents.
However, my mum died last year and since then I feel drawn to church and God. I don't know if it is God or something else spiritual such as the universe and source. I keep reading Eckhart Tolle 'A new earth' and the bible comparisons resonate so much!
I just feel confused. It's like I really want to believe in God but something is holding me back. How do I get my faith back? I live near a Christian church (not catholic) and I feel in awe of it when I walk past!
It seems that everyone around me are atheists. Typical sayings! Can't be a God due to suffering. I understand we need to suffer to become enlightened but I just feel mixed up. Do I just let God guide me?