I'm what christians would call a "back slider". An ex true believer, who should know better. I've always been a spiritual person, but once I reached my late teens, I started to see how a lot of mainstream religions, churches and particular "christians", were actually rotten to the core, and that religion had been used for a long time, as a way to control the masses (women in particular) through "gods" word.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about "our mother", who isn't in heaven. Did God have a wife? Was there a Goddess? It turns out that yes, he was, and there were several actually, but they were erased from the narrative.
More and more I think the only things worth worshipping are the earth itself and what it gives us. The trees, waters and food that keep us alive, get little recognition or respect, the big man with the white beard gets all the credit. Surely trees at least should be considered more sacred than any saint, apostle or prophet? I like the thought of "mother nature", and I can feel more spiritual in a bad storm now, amidst all that power and energy, than I ever did in a church with a bible on my lap. Part of me thinks this virus is her revenge.