(Bit of background first)
Im absolutlt terrified of flying. I have flown about a dozen times, last time being 7 years ago. Up until then i was OK, but felt VERY uncomfatable on planes, but on my last flight I was 15 and felt REALLY freaked. It was my last family holiday and have nevr flown since.
I have repeated dreams about plane crashes, they have slowed down lately but about 6 months ago i would have about 3 a week !
Sometimes Im in the plane, sometimes im watching it and it just explodes. I always imagine or see myself sat looking down the isles, its horrible.
Anyway tonight I watched this programme about 'past lives' and my mum came round after. I was telling her about the little lad on it who recalled his past life and they looked it up and (most - but not all) of it was true.
She said you did something like that when you wre little, Then went quiet.
I tried to get the story from her for about 10 minutes and she said When i was little i told her I had died in a car crash.
I just laughed,
but I could tell she wasn't giving me the full story, so cue another 15 minutes of badgering and she finally tells me ...
When i was just gone 2.5 i SAID TO HER
'MUM, DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN I WAS ON THE PLANE AND IT SET ON FIRE AND i DIED?'
apparantly i would tell my mum I was sat on the plane and there was fire everywhere and then I died,
and every time I saw one in the sky i would say, I died n that plane mummy.
Now you probably all think im BONKERS, but when she told me i cried, and im shaking now.
Its not just a fearI have, its something more (ive posted about it before under the name kittylette - its a paralysing fear)
And it all just seems to make sense now, the things I see in my dreams and the way I feel about planes.
But I also feel in a way its a warning - not to go on one, even though all evidence points to a past thing.
God Im just rambling here, and I know you will all say 'kids say weird stuff'
but what I said back then in relation to the dreams and pictures I still have now,
its just really freaked me out TBH.