Prayers for everyone. I have read through and said prayers as I read each post.
Edd, of course I have time. I have prayed for your requests and I am praying for you to make the right decision for you. It sounds quite difficult to know what to do, however I pray that you will find the best way forward and that it will be a decision that you are very happy that you made.
Lissette I loved the prayer that you posted.
Glad that both cocoa and girlandboy both had a fairly good nights sleep, considering what you have going on too. Prayers for you both too.
Orchid, I have prayed for you and your anxiety. It does sound like it's very difficult for you and I really hope that you can find a way to cope with everything and you can deal with things without being sick. That must be so deliberating for you.
Dd failed her driving test. She was a bit disappointed but her instructor wants her to put in for it asap as he knows that test appointments are coming through for a week or so.
I have the mother of all knots in my long hair. It's where the collar rubs again the very back of my hair. Think knotty poodle, as in a tight pad of knotted hair, and that's me. Dd is going to tease it out for me as I cannot stretch to get it. Thing is it possibly will happen again as I cannot sleep with a pony tail in. I am dreading the ouch of the teasing bit.
I had to go to the pharmacy today and collect my bits. I was conscious of my hair that I can't wash and the added knots and was a tad bit grumpy. I absolutely can't drive past the accident site as I am reduced to tears and the fear is immense although I don't remember a single bit. Anyway the journey to the pharmacy was that bit trickier due to this. We went another way and I got in the pharmacy and sure enough everyone turned to stare at me. The pharmacist who is lovely asked me what on earth had happened and then I just opened the floodgates. I was driven by general frustration with everything going on and I was fuelled by the stares from everyone and the grease knotty hair that people look at and don't know that I haven't been allowed to wash since the accident that I just seemed to go on and on about it.
I suppose that I was trying to say that a lot has happened and I am having to make the best of it without becoming a spectacle to be observed.
The poor pharmacist was trying to sort of concentrate on the positives and I really wasn't seeing them. I was aware of the queue listening to the conversation and I wasn't in the mood for that. Anyway when I got back in the car and dh started to drive me home, I did feel I had gone on a tad too much.
Some people will stand and stare and listen carefully to private conversations and not have the common sense to try to hide it. Nor do they move prams and active toddlers and their other things out of the way of the doorway and general public areas so that after hearing about my injuries and what I am coping with I can get out of the shop or indeed even get around the shop. It's not just for me, there are elderly people and others who are struggling with moving around. So I erm let off steam in an embarrassingly moaning way. How I found the words of Lissettes prayer comforting when I got home and reflected.
We have been invited to a family celebration and normally I would be looking forward to it. Then I checked the date and it dawned on me that I will be wearing the neckbrace which restricts what I can wear and I will be sporting my even greasier hair decorated possibly with new poodle knots. I just can't face it. Plus I don't really want to go to a place where there will be lots of people and loud music and activity as it really does tire me out. It's quite confusing now to even watch that type of thing on TV never mind do it.
I need to be more patient and humble. I need to be more accepting and less irritated by things. There is much to feel blessed with and I need to have a word with myself and try to keep positive and thankful.