Christian prayer thread- Easter on the way

[blackeyedsusan]

All welcome to join

Here is a list of all those who popped in or were regulars on the last thread. I hope I have not missed anyone!!

Amberlight- being treated for breast cancer. side effects may damage her heart.
Beatrice Primrose and cupoftea poorly baby and support for the family
Bluetinkerbell - ttc after losing the beloved Sterre during her second trimester
CaptainDippy- busy busy busy
Chairofthebored -dh has ms and ttc number1
Doodlealley -popped in to ask for prayer re breast cancer.
DutchOma- dh has a lung disease requiring regular trips to hospital/drs and lots of rest
Expat's dd suffering from leukaemia
Fink- recent single parent- husband left
FriendofDorothy- ttc -appointment soon. poorly cat.
Gingercurl - things are stressful at home, studying, high blood pressure
Issypeach - work situation insecure for h and Issy. Prayer requested for the dcs one of whom has gone awol and the other at uni
Jaffacakes ... when is/was your due date?
Jugglingwithsnowballs-job applications to work 1 to 1 with children
Lostmywellies - recently returned to the uk, currently freezing due to heating problems. frriendships for dd and ds to settle into nursery
Madhairday - reoccuring lung infections, dd with psoriasis/partial hearing and unhelpful school
MaryB - work and relationships at church. difficult situations socially for dc's
Notevenamousie - curently undergoing treatment as an inpatient. recently lost her mum.
PositiveAttitude- soon to be working abroad for 2 years. prayer also for current work situation and 3 jobs! (eek) pray for protection and continuing recovery of dd3 just out of hospital and battles for dla
SESthebrave -prayer for husbands stessful job situation and high blood pressure. pray for her quadraplegic friend suffering from pressure sores
Springydaffs-prayer for the truth to be known and a reconciliation with family
SweetestThing- just got the all clear from cancer and officially in remission. however, still has to deal with the after effects of surgery.
Teaandcakesplease - single parent to 2 young children. unsupportive parents re ds "being a toddler." prayer for new reliable friends.
Tuo -dd1 and dh to be more positive about her faith
Weegie atypical variant Guillain Barre syndrome has left her with no sensation in her legs below the knees or arms below the elbows, including hands and feet and the lower part of her face. she can do practically nothing for herself.
Welshcerys- family
ZipidiSoozi- things aren't so easy at the moment. we would love to hear from you.
and finally (I hope)
Blackeyedsusan - mad as a hatter! single parent to 2 youngish children, separated after dv. pray for friends and a new church. ds's behaviour and toddler diarrhoea. dd, niggling health problems.

How's the heart doing today Amber? Behaving any more?

Well I am a single mum but I am very very rarely ill MHD. Your situation is far harder. Much love to you x

MHD, we're making it misbehave by making me do exercise...deliberately...otherwise they can't see what it does. Quite exciting really

Oooh crumbs Amber - love your attitude to it Hope it doesn't misbehave too much.

chest pain is overpowering. Hate this. The dc are home and don't want to cry in front of them so curled up at the computer. This is crap. I can't do anything more, I'm on max meds. My consultant talked about progressing to morphine if it gets worse, I might have to, but codeine is bad enough. scream.

MHD argh re the chest pain...huge prayers....

Thanks for your prayers for the interview lost wellies and all on here.

It went well - but I didn't get it.

Feeling a bit gutted - but on the other hand appreciating the simple blessings I do have like my two DCs and my family and home - and the sunny late afternoon when I went for a walk around a nearby lake (after I'd heard)

Family rallying round in a comforting way. DH being supportive which makes all the difference.

May have to think about changing my strategy and going for different sort of job - as these TA jobs, being school hours and term time only, and working with children, seem to be like gold dust !

Or like searching for a gold nugget on a dry river bed in the dying days of the Californian gold rush (as I thought to myself as I walked round the lake)

So much love to all those with so much more to contend with x

Didn't want for this thread to drop off my threads again. Checking in and praying as I read.

Sorry to hear that, juggling. So glad that dh is being supportive.

mhd, glad to hear you've got lots of support. We shall spend Saturday griping, then. :o Grr to the lung pain, though. When you say codeine's bad enough, what does that mean? Does it have side effects? Or do you just want to hold off on stronger painkillers so that you know you've got them to turn to later, iyswim?

prayed mhd

sorry juggling, keep trying. you never know another better job may turn up.

today has been the day of the meltdowns. I seem to be living up to my name and am sporting 2 blackeyes, faintish but non the less black eyes. ds whacked me in the face with both hands during a major melt down outside nursery. like father, like son. he was doing the jelly legs and resisting arrest and in an attempt to get hold of him without wrenching ams out of sockets or letting him strangle himself on his reins i picked him up the wrong way round. best to have the slappy, kicky, bitey, scratchy bits facing away from oneself.

Ooh (in a bad way) that sounds painful bes

Horrible when they whack you in the face/eye

The things mothers put up with hey ... all in a day's work ? (wry raise of the eyebrow)

We could have tales of worst assaults by DCs on here ... similar to that "most painful" thread ? Just thinking between us we could probably come up with a fair few tales. Hope it's not too bad bes and will be better soon x

Thanks for the commiserations ... it's nice to have virtual friends ... I really appreciate your thoughts. I haven't seen my other (RL) friends yet ... really nice to have both kinds !

Ouchy, BES!

Juggling, so sorry about the job. Praying the right one will come up soon.

lost, thanks :) Codeine I find annoying because it makes me very drowsy and losing concentration therefore when I am having bad days pain wise I am unable to drive, which throws a spanner in the works when dh isn't here getting dc to clubs etc, friends have been helping out though so things are OK. It also apparently can cause liver damage on long term use and addiction but as my doctor has said you have to weigh in the balance the effects of it (ie makes the pain easier to bear) versus the side effects - and for me the good effects win atm. Paracetomol doesn't touch it and I can't take anti inflammatories so has to be that. I know I'm addicted as well but that's the way of it.

Praying for everyone. Esp Amber and Weegie...

Please pray. I'm not sure what for, I'm having a bad day mentally and physically. I hate this stupid disease. And it's not going away. Finding life hideously difficult.

Can you tell us more about how things are weegie ?

Would it help at all to say what's particularly getting to you about it all today ?

Apologies if that's not a helpful question !

Maybe you just want to say "Everything"

Praying for more of that famous weegie strength to sustain you through a bad day x

It is "everything".

I've hidden in bed from my lovely mothers help today cos I don't want to need her, I want to be able to do it myself, but I so can't!

I overdid it yesterday going out and that has left me totally exhausted physically and mentally. Dh was away last night with work and I didn't sleep well.

Sounds ridiculous, but I hate mothers day! When I was 12 my mum walked out on us the Monday after mothers day with her OM and really that was the end of my relationship with her and the start of my mental health and personality problems. This year, I have a beautiful, gorgeous intelligent 12 year old dd and every time I look at her I want to weep for the me that was, and the me I might have been.

My limbs are still numb, leaden, painful in bursts, and it isn't going to get much better than this.

I'm lonely, bored, frustrated, miserable and I have to put on a brave face as I'm getting taken to see the pandas at Edinburgh zoo on Sunday!

My appetite has gone and I'm losing weight again- 5 stone now.

I know there are worse things in life, people worse off than me. But I'm being self indulgently miserable about all this.

If this is all there is to look forward to, I don't want to go on.

I'm not actually suicidal, been there, done that, I'm not going back there again, but I feel like I'm existing, not living.

Sorry for moan, thanks for asking!

weegie, I couldn't see this and not post. I don't have words, I have found when I have been feeling similar that words can't help and there aren't any answers, and it is only the support and love of people that I have needed. So I wanted to send you that, and hold your hand a little tonight.

Praying for peace to somehow break in, despite the horribleness of what you are facing. I was sitting there yesterday crying in pain and wondering what God was doing, but something kept repeating to me 'God is love, God is Love, God is Love.' Somehow, that is always the same. Praying for you my love.

Thanks for your reply weegie

• we want to know what's going on because (though we've not met in RL) we care about you

Sounds like this Mother's Day may be particularly poignant for you. But i hope it is happy in places too - I'd love to see the panda's at Edinburgh zoo - they are one of my favourite animals (since I had a cuddly panda as a child)

Will be lovely to see them with your dd and family I'm sure

Sorry for rather inadequate and hurried reply - hope others will be posting too x

Prayers aplenty all round.
Was having day from heck too. Must be something in the water...
Weegie, you're not being self indulgent at all. You've every reason to feel naffed off at the mo. Takes ages to renegotiate life. Whatever you're feeling, it's understandable.
MHD, how you doing with the pain??
Everyone else, thinking of you and praying...

weegie - you are not being self indulgent. As the others have said, we care about eachother on this thread (even if we've not met in RL!) and the "we" includes you! Please be assured of my prayers for you as you try to cope with your illness and also as you cope with a particularly poignant weekend ahead. I hope the trip to see the pandas won't be too tiring and will be a good distraction with some lovely famiy time.

amber - prayers for you too. Are you still making your heart misbehave?

MHD - prayers for you, that the pain will improve and you will feel able to gradually reduce the codeine

Juggling - praying that there's something even better around the corner for you

BES - hope your eyes are calming down. DS lashes out sometimes too. Face scratching when he was younger and now ocassionally slapping me round the face. It is always down to frustration about him not being able to do something or have something he wants and I can see the frustration build and he doens't seem to be able to let it out any other way. Doesn't help our poor faces though does it!

Prayers of thanks here for being signed off by endocrine consultant on Tuesday as my thyroid levels are finally correct. Now I just need prayers please for this LO to get in the right position and not be like DS was (transverse oblique). I have a scan in 6 weeks and if this LO is transverse oblique, they will want me to go into hospital at 37 weeks and sit it out for 2 weeks before doing a CS. This is not my ideal scenario!

oh weegie. I wish I could come and give you a big hug and help you through your grieving process, for the mum you should have had, for the body you should have had. I wish I could make it better for you, but all we can do is listen and be there when you want a rant and a cry.

ses, are you going to be doing a lot of cleaning floors and gardening on your hands and knees to encourage babyto turn round? yay to thyroid levels, thank God!

weegie, I have felt like you are today with much less cause! We're here and listening. And it's not ridiculous at all to hate Mother's Day for the reason you do - that sounds awful, it ripped away the life you had known till then and replaced it with a significantly different, less comfortable one. Much like this illness-thing has done.

But not every day will feel like this. There will also be better days where you feel a tremendous sense of achievement for cooking a meal, for example. :)

On Sunday, we sang Matt Redman's "Blessed be your name" in church. It was painful, but I keep coming back to it this evening. If you don't know it, it's available on YouTube (I can't figure out how to c&p to link on my iPad and at the moment can't use a normal computer!).

I was really struggling with it, partly I think as I had it at my baptism 5 years ago and it does come back to bite me!

Trying (and failing) to sing the words of the second verse: "Blessed be your name, on the road marked with suffering, though there's pain in the offering, blessed be your name". I remembered then that he wrote the song after one of their children was stillborn. So the words "You give and take away, my heart will choose to say: Blessed be your name" have a huge amount of meaning! My choice is clear - I choose to follow God in the bad times, as I did in the good, or I give up on being a Christian. That I can't do! I hear peter's voice from the gospels "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life!"

So ....

I struggle and I moan and I fret, but in the end I have already made my choice : Blessed be Your Name, Jesus!

Weegie Amen to that. You are so right, we have no other choice.

More prayers all round.

Not trying to make my heart misbehave any more, no, but neither am I going to stop doing stuff. It'll have to fit in with all the other bits of me that don't work quite right

Loving your last comment amber "It'll have to fit in ..."

Reminds me of "There is a crack in everything that's how the light gets in"

and then that links well with the phrase "We have this treasure in clay pots"

Love to all x

weegie, so, so true. I listened to over and over a month or two back, when I'd been wondering where God was in the things going on in my life. Like you, I echoed the words of Peter - and that was the end of the argument, really!

Liking all these inspiring thoughts to start my busy weekend. :)