We have sold our car, got rid of the dog :(, flogged the furniture, rented the house, left our jobs, our friends and our city and are in missionary college being theologically prepared for overseas missions work in our jobs. We were meant to be going to Mozambique in June. I am now 25 weeks pregnant with DD2 ( DD1 is 18 months)
4 weeks ago I got the willies, regarding malaria prophylaxis of the new baby and some other stuff and we are waiting for a new placement, if our missions organisation have anything at all. We have a meeting to find this out on Tuesday. I am really struggling. I am not sleeping well; waking up and panicking about 'what if' etc.
I am just feeling really rubbish at the moment, 5 sleeps until we find out about the rest of our lives and DH is totally withdrawing from me and being all quiet and giving an atmosphere all the time. We are basically both really in need and need from each other, but it seems neither of us are able to meet the other's needs. From my point of view I feel abandoned, but I know that he is just struggling as well.
I just want to shout out at him and cry ' but I am bloody pregnant, and dealing with a willful toddler, and not sleeping and managing everything about Christmas as well as missing all my friends and missing my life' but I dont think that would do any good at all. AIBU to just want a cuddle and some support at this time?