I've always been happy being Church of England.
I won't say Anglican, because I'd never heard of that word until I met an my American friend, and it was obviously the only way to describe cofe being used in America! 
and to me, Anglican does sound more "charismatic" than cofe does.
It sounds like they're trying to break free of the traditional roots and become more embracing of modernity.
anyway, today I feel shit.
I think I might be going through a rough patch again - haven't had one for nearly 2 years, but I feel antsy and slightly angry.
and evidently, forgetful.
I had a massive row with one of the choir after the service yesterday - when we recessed, by the time we got to the back of the church, the choir was about 5 miles ahead of the organ and seemed to refuse to slow down to match it. I know it's because they don't listen (and where I was, furthest away with the choir inbetween me and the organ, i could barely hear it), and I stood and flicked my ear to show that they should be listening - anyway, this one man was standing completely opposite me, so I had looked at him while I was flicking my ear. he looked at me in such a nasty way and said "just Shut it!" - the service hadn't even finished.
I got extremely angry at that, and as soon as we had been dismissed I laid into him.
I told him that the entire choir was ahead of the organ and it's because noone was listening - it wasn't just him. I also told him that he should never speak to me like that. He retorted "act your age" (in the manner of a petulant child) so I replied that he wasn't acting his age and that he needs to grow up and learn to be part of the choir.
I was absolutely fuming . 
It wouldn't be so bad if it were just me that was noticing it, but a few times now, the churchwarden and deputy, both of whom sit at the back, have mentioned the choir being faster than the organ before.
On top of that, I've mentioned already that we're using a prepared booklet of hymns this month because there are too many hymns that we wanted that are mucked about with in the Hideous book.
The other churchwarden made snide remarks about it - asking churchwarden 1 if it had "been discussed at a meeting". It's none of the churchwarden's business what music we choose - that pleasure/responsibility/curse belongs to DH.
She remarked that she thought we were "trying to phase out the hymn book" - actually, if we had our way, we would - it's bloody awful.
and then to top it all off, I've been looking forward to visiting a school this week - I had been reminding myself all last week "don't forget to go to school on Tuesday with books". Got a phonecall from said school this morning "aren't you supposed to be visiting us today?" 
I'm really upset with myself for getting the day wrong. :(
I can recognise this as a slippery slope down to misery. :( (i know it's happened before but I never spotted signs until it was too late - and by then, you can't work out triggers)