baby is 19 weeks, im beyond exhausted she does not sleep not in the day or night in the night I see every hour every night then she refuses to sleep from 6 am I sleep no more than 45 minutes at a time but sometimes it takes her an hour or more to sleep again
she cries all day I cant even eat a hot meal without crying whinging im so over stimulated in the day I breakdown multiple times crying
I cannot cope anymore, im at the end with it all, im so exhausted everday I just think again really I have a day with no end my memory is terrible now, I have no appetite, im depressed, sad I look horrific huge bags under my eyes I feel sick all day long
I am so miserable I hate being a mum, and no I get no help I cannot trust my family with her as before when asked for help they didnt follow safe sleep, letting her sleep on the sofa alone, or wrapping her in 100 loose layers not keepong her sleep space clear kissing her etc
honestly if the dad was around and willing I would probably give her to him and run away u cant go on its making me suicidal
I would never hurt my baby and I do love her but I need sleep its affecting my life so so badly I would rather die then go on like this, I found a lump in my boob 3 months ago I went to the gp just recently and the gp looked worried im waiting an urgent ultrasound and as bad as It sounds I hope it is cancer so I can just die