Pram scare, the front wheels were dropped down the last step. Now I'm worried about brain damage in my 6 week old newborn😭

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Hi, I wonder if I'm panicking for nothing or if I should commit suicide for inadvertently injuring my newborn. I visited a friend over the weekend, while leaving their flat, we needed to carry my newborns pram, with newborn, down the 3 wee steps in his building. He dropped the front wheels off the last step! The pram jerked down instead of being set down gently. My baby was asleep, she more startled and jerked awake and cried out. She settled quickly after, she travels well in her pram, enjoying the gentle shoogling. I'm so worried now though. I keep googling shaken baby syndrome. Has anyone else done this? My baby is eating well, responding well, she's been a bit irritable today but she has had a bit of a blocked nose. I'm panicking, I feel like the worst mother. Like I should just kill myself and be done with it. I'd really rather die than have caused my baby any harm.
Please, genuinely advise.

Commuting suicide would obviously harm your baby as their parent would be dead. Nobody is going to advise that.

Baby was secured in a pram and it fell 1 step, they will be 100% fine. Seek help for your mental health asap

Your baby is absolutely fine. I've seen this happen quite a few times. Gently op but maybe get that anxiety checked out because saying you feel like killing yourself is very worrying.

Your baby is fine. Don’t worry.

You sound as if you’re suffering from really significant anxiety or depression, possibly PND- have you spoken to your MW or anyone else about this? is there someone there with you?

If you are so worried, call 111 or go to A&E. When did it happen? Probably just go to the GP tomorrow? Call the health visitor? Do you have an out of hours number for them? Killing yourself is obviously not going to help your baby.

She's fine calm down.
Leaping to the conclusion that you should just not be here is extremely worrying.
Speak to a HCP.
Also if it makes you feel any better, years ago I was gently getting my pram down a steep kerb and some randomer went to me "Can tell your a first timer, wait til you've had a load more and the prams getting bounced all over the show".

Do you generally suffer from health anxiety, or is this a new thing since the birth of your baby?

The circumstances you describe will not have harmed your baby.

It sounds like a conversation with your health visitor or GP to discuss your anxiety and suicidal thoughts is paramount.

Your baby will be fine. I do think you need to seek some help for yourself though, your GP would be a good port of call.

This should be deleted by mumsnet and you need to get some help. Really OP, get some help.

You need to speak to someone OP, it is not normal to talk about harming yourself. Your baby is fine.

I agree with others about about baby being fine and that you should seek support for your anxiety.

She is absolutely fine. Dh fell down the stairs, like an entire flight of stairs, with our eldest when she was about 24 hours old. Absolutely fine.

It’s not normal and healthy to worry to this extent. Talk with your GP about how you’re feeling because you don’t have to be feeling like this. I didn’t realise how badly my mental health was suffering until I got out the other side. I wished I’d asked for help sooner.

Ah bless you I was very mentally unwell after one of my pregnancies and had so much anxiety. Prams are designed to withstand a bit of daily life, it didn't tip her out , she had a jolt while on a mattress and in clothing. Babies who are injured are subject to a significant injury and the after effects would be seen. Really do try to speak to someone about your anxiety, you might just need some decent peer support or local connections.

Hello OP,

We're so sorry that this happened and you're feeling this way. We feel for you. It's not easy.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected].

We have some more information about postnatal depression here. We also wanted to share Mind’s information with you – it has practical tips on what you can do when you feel like this and where to get urgent help. Maybe take a look and see if there’s anything that might be helpful right now.

Please do think about exploring some of the options in the links above. You might also want to look at Mumsnet's Postnatal health board or our section on Sleep.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you - if you are really struggling it's really a good idea to seek real-life help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Thank you to everyone that responded and gave their advice and encouragement. We went to our GP this morning. I called 111 last night and sought advice. My baby is 100% fine. I have been referred to a mental health specialist for my anxiety and depression. I sincerely apologise for triggering or upsetting anyone on this forum. Thank you Mumsnet for the advice and mental health links. I'm sorry again. I've struggled with depression before and I'm sorry for upsetting anyone here.

That’s a great update. Well done for seeking support and I hope you feel better soon.

No need to apologise, I am glad you sought help and found the replies helpful. All the best!

Glad to hear that op. You are never alone and there is always someone on here. Take care and enjoy your baby x