I had my first ds at 21 , my boyfriend at the time disappeared as soon as told him. I couldn't go through with an abortion. My parents told me they will support and help me. That didn't happen. I got a place in university and couldn't go because no Chilcare was supplied and I couldn't afford to pay. My mother refused to help. I was then kicked out of the family home when DS was 1 . I struggled for many years living on benefits and all my hopes and dreams seemed impossible.
Fast forward to now I have had a another DS with my partner. He's 3 . I have no family support and we can't afford childcare. So once again my life is on hold but my DP works full time and is progressing in his career. I have had no time to have anything in this life for myself. I'm 36 and have a three year old and feel like I'm reliving it all over again. My 15 year old is almost reared.
I feel like walking away from it all. I'm depressed and unhappy. We don't have much money , don't own our own house and don't go anywhere. Iv had enough. I'm worn out my whole life has been a struggle . I'm going to kill myself if I have to live another life in this miserable existence.