I've asked twice now for GP to call back but nobody has.
I think I'm struggling with PND. It's a horrific feeling.
My baby was born very prematurely and is in NICU. Due to lack of support, I rarely see her. She's getting bigger every day and I feel disconnected to her. Like I don't want her anymore. Like I don't love her. It upsets me to think I'm going to have to bring her home next year
I just can't do it, or so it feels that way. It's impacting my milk supply. I feel angry. I've held her for a while today and then for a lovely supply. Then other times it's crap and next to nothing. I fed my DS for 3 years.
I feel so isolated and alone in this. I want to love her and get close but I feel regret when I look at her. DS is severely disabled, never sleeps. She might end up like that too. It was a mistake to have her
I thought about her just dying last night and felt a fleeting feeling of relief. Then I broke down into tears with anger at myself. How can I feel like that? I'm a monster.