This is negative isnt it?

[Bishbashboom]

Please tell me you cant see a line?

Ds is only 8 months old, and our 8 month old on lockdown has really really been hardwork. I'm due back to work soon, but I'd also just got another offer of a job which was an opportunity in a lifetime.

Theres no line is there, it's my eyesight?

There are 15 months between SILs 2 boys (now age 6&7). They are so, so close. They have just moved into a much bigger house, and they still insist on sharing a bedroom. They are the absolute best of friends.

SIL says the first months were really hard, but worth it for the wonderful closeness they have. She's done it all again now with number 3!

I'm actually coming round now and seeing it that they will be close but 8yo dd will struggle.

I spoke to the job I will have to turn it down as it is a developmental role and it's a sponsored position but its obviously just not meant to be right now.

Ah wow! I think you're brilliant. Your DD will come round too, once you've had a chance to recover yourself. Seriously what a little miracle. After all the losses and even losing a tube, he or she waits til you have your dream job landed This one is gonna keep you on your toes. Our last one was a surprise miracle and she's the best thing that ever happened to our family.

We said the same, its clearly just meant to be and this little one is going to be the one who rules the roost.

It will be lovely for ds as he is 16 months, and it might give dd a break from playing eventually as he adores her and wants her to play all the time.

Sadly it's all gone a bit rubbish, all the planning and thinking we did just ended in call from the hospital informing me my bloods arent good and I'm facing another impending miscarriage.

She ended the call with 'enjoy the rest of your day'

So I've lost the baby, lost the job I really wanted as I was honest about the pregnancy and I'm currently sat here feeling terrible about to go back to work tonight for the first shift after maternity leave.

Oh you poor thing! I'm so sorry. What a shitty day for you.

Wish I could say something to make you feel better

Am so sorry to hear that. Am sure you probably won’t feel like it, but you really should contact the job- they may well not have given it to anyone else yet. Take care

Thanks all, I've pinged them an email

I feel awful because I was so shocked about the baby that it's like I was ungrateful so it was bound to happen

Anyway, it is how it is

Well this is bizarre my hcg has gone back up through the roof!

Oh my goodness @Bishbashboom - what a rollercoaster! What happens next - will they check your levels again in a few days?

How you doing OP? X

Apologies I forgot to reply.

We had a scan earlier in the week dating me around 7 weeks, baby is happy with a heartbeat.

I'm still mentally worried how I will hope but it will be fine. To say I am currently exhausted is an understatement!

So pleased to hear that. Sending lots of love and positivity your way. X