we had our newest little boy last Wednesday 💙
But weve been in NICU with him since Thursday as he has a type of jaundice that can lead to brain damage if not treated. It’s basically some antibodies that were in my blood (as we don’t have the same blood group)attacking Finns red blood cells and he’s struggling to get rid of them so they turn into jaundice. ( something like that, doctors tell it better!! So hard understanding)
Anyway I’m a bloody mess. I feel so guilty and so incredibly useless because I just don’t feel like I’m being a mum to baby or to My other two boys.
Has anyone else had a baby in NICU and other kids at home?! How the hell did you do it?!
How did you stop being a hormonal, emotional person?! I can’t stop myself from crying.
I feel guilty leaving baby and I feel guilty not being at home for the boys. I need to get my act together as I can see me sinking!!
We just want to be a family at home, but the way things are looking it’s going to be a while before we can! 😥😥