Please don't think I mean I dislike my newborn. I don't. I already love him unconditionally. It's more I just hate this part of our lives.
My new DS is almost 4 weeks old and those weeks have been spent, not sleeping, trying to get him asleep, feeding him (constantly!) and wondering what to do with with him for the 5/10 minutes at a time he's awake and not crying. Not to mention trying to juggle looking after my Dd who is just about to turn two.
My relationship with DH is understandably strained as we are both tired and feeling new parent guilt over DS and wondering if DD is getting enough attention.
I'm still recovering from a C-sec and large hematoma that followed the surgery and DH is about to go back to work 12hr shifts in a very stressful job on little sleep.
My friend circle has closed down from being quite active with work colleagues - to just my 'Baby mum friends' (and im only seeing those that are willing to spend time with our toddlers and my colicky screamy newborn!) as I'm usually a shift worker and live quite far away from work and my colleagues, it's difficult for them to visit: plus hardly any of them have children. So I'm probably a bit more lonely than usual too.
I know I knew all this was coming and it's not like I didn't want to have two children. It's just this newborn bit is a bit boring, a bit hard and oh so tiring!
Wondered if anyone else was up for admitting they feel like this too??
Or maybe it's just me and I'm not cut out for this bit?