i am the worst SAHM in the world EVER im going to go back to work full time and see how they like it then

[nailpolish]

my 4 yr old hates me

i was sitting next to her playing polly pocket and i could smell it - she ws doing a poo in her pants

she has done this every day for a week, maybe longer

"mummy you are not going to be proud of me" smirk smirk

i think she is too lazy to go to the toilet

i am so shit at motherhood

she is horrible to dd2 all day long

calls her names
pokes her
steals her food and toys

i think its because dd2 plays quietly by herself, and dd1 has no imagination, she finds it hard to play alone

oh i have no ficking idea what to do

md

dh wants me to do more hours at work (for my sanity)

i just look at dd2 and it breaks my heart thinking sending her to a strangers house

It's bloody hard isn't it?
I suspect i wouldn't be as happy with my choice,if I wasn't 100% confident with my choice.
Both dd and ds attended/attend a wonderful Welsh medium nursery on a farm.This is a small community,so everyone knows everyone which makes a big difference.Dd's childminder used to work at the nursery and has known her since she was 7 mths.
Dd cries when I pick her uo,she loves it so.

How is the Phlebotomist job?Any chance of more hours there?
Your call but no point being home and miserable.
(BTW you have always sounded like a fantastic mother.How many people make bread with their kids??? Probably 3%????)

The childminder or nursery wouldn't be a stranger though would she/they, maybe for a teeny tiny short while and then she would run in and not give you a second thought.

Dd1 was 4 last week and has been a pain in the arse (I think this is the technical term?) ever since.

Refuses to dress in the morning. We has a set to over a pair of tights yesterday, me screeching, her sobbing until dh came down and gave me a 'look' that said it all. V and I felt bad all day.

dd2 has started hitting as well so I am one of those hovvering hen mothers at M&B now and everyone probably tuts behind my back, LOL!!!

Red wine tonight on draft methinks.

I said on Monday that I couldn't wait to get back to work tomorrow FOR SOME BLOODY PEACE!!!!!!!

I don't think that is in any childcare manuals....

oh np... am posting one handed cos am also sewing up a waldorf doll but

thank christ you posted this.

am sending heartfelt agreeing with you vibes-look, see, there they are coming your way, over the severn...

aaargh, ds is so like this. And fecking perfect for everyone else. His grandparents think he is an angel. And it takes bloody an hour to get him dressed every morning. And we have had the crapping in pants thing for a year now. Cos it is oh, so funny.

Oh so glad this is not just me. My ds is 4.5 and started school in Sept, and w ehave had a few instances of poo in pants. And he tells me. He always wees, not a huge wee but a big circle IYKWIM and comes and says 'Mummy I've weed' and I get so cross.

And at times he so cheeky, and opiniated, and aggressive. And at others he loves me more than anything in teh world and hugs me so tightly. Who knows what goes on in the mind of a 4 year old eh?

Think my ds is just a huge ball of testosterone at the moment.

and do you know what really gets me?

I gave up a good, well paid job to stay at home with them

and are they grateful? Do they even consider this before trashing the house with blue glitter and giggling about it?

grrr

Do you know what really used to annoy me about DD: when she used to say "It doesn't matter" when she had gone in her pants. I used to think: "I, as the washer of the pants, am the only person who is allowed to say that. You, Missy, are supposed to think it does matter, and just be grateful that Mum doesn't make a fuss about it.

I thought I was the worst sahm in the world...

dd is so particular aobut her clohtes, she is shocked that i dont wash the ppo pants they go straight in the bin

"they were my cinderella ones!"

"tough"

poo went in the loo today

i have email ed boss to ask about maybe 2 mornings through the week as well as weekend

waiting for her ot get back

if i found a kind cm, i might start to consider

i have had a better day today

thank you all so much for your support

it really helps me

Just adding my support too, nailpolish. I made a spectacular hash of potty training, found it v hard to not get cross about the endless poos in pants (and always while out in public, nice). And I'm also heading back to work in the New Year - ds2 will be 18 months, we'll have room for an au pair and I can do 2 or 3 days a week. Can't wait.

thats great wilbur. to hear someone happy with a decision is great. enjoy being back at work, when it arrives!

i work weekends and i look forward to it, and i dont rush home either

Nailpolish, I very very nearly posted on here earlier this afternoon 'is it OK to feel quite intense dislike of my children today?' as they racketed around downstairs - it's DD1's half term and they had a couple of days at home being babysat by an adorable 14 year old; and today they were just driving me INSANE, clearly in need of exercise, and DD1 and her (very nice) best friend were leaving DD2 out of their games and DD2 (who peed ALL OVER THE FLOOR yesterday and is not exactly spotless in many ways) was weeping...

...if they hadn't ALL GONE OUT to another friend's house I swear I'd have had to fabricate a visit to Sainsbury's just to get away from them.

MI i always like your posts

its so great to hear honesty about children

what a frickin relief it is to me anyway

last night in bed i cried myself to sleep "i cant face another day like today" as its been like this for a week

but its been fine today