The most horrible thing happened 3weeks ago. I was called to school as DS had a small mark on end of his nose. I made this mark when I playfully pinched his nose.
Social service where called and came the school and I had to give a explanation as to how this happened. Which I did.
My DC had been a little excitable and I had asked him to give be a cuddle and be nice. I kissed and pinched his nose and said he was my lovely cheeky boy. The mark appear about ten minutes later. I explained all this to ss and they told me the following Wednesday that no further action would be taken. Although I did have to give a statement to the police. I did that two weeks ago and have heard nothing.
I have phoned 3 times for update, simple on the fact that i am a mess with the constant worry about the outcome.
I love my children and would never diliberatly harm them. For the last 3 weeks I have not eaten, slept. I am taking Promazine to help me calm down. I know it is wrong to mark a child but this was a accident. I don't even smack them.
If I get a caution, which my irrational thoughts are telling me will be the out come, i could lose my job. I work in the care sector. If that happens I will be finished, I would lose my house, my children would not be able to do the weekly activities. Dancing, judo, football. That's what breaks my heart the most the thought of telling my DD she can't dance anymore.
I don't know what I want from this post. And I know I have done wrong, any help, advice would be appreciated.