Feel so lost and alone

[gwenig2]

The most horrible thing happened 3weeks ago. I was called to school as DS had a small mark on end of his nose. I made this mark when I playfully pinched his nose.
Social service where called and came the school and I had to give a explanation as to how this happened. Which I did.
My DC had been a little excitable and I had asked him to give be a cuddle and be nice. I kissed and pinched his nose and said he was my lovely cheeky boy. The mark appear about ten minutes later. I explained all this to ss and they told me the following Wednesday that no further action would be taken. Although I did have to give a statement to the police. I did that two weeks ago and have heard nothing.
I have phoned 3 times for update, simple on the fact that i am a mess with the constant worry about the outcome.
I love my children and would never diliberatly harm them. For the last 3 weeks I have not eaten, slept. I am taking Promazine to help me calm down. I know it is wrong to mark a child but this was a accident. I don't even smack them.
If I get a caution, which my irrational thoughts are telling me will be the out come, i could lose my job. I work in the care sector. If that happens I will be finished, I would lose my house, my children would not be able to do the weekly activities. Dancing, judo, football. That's what breaks my heart the most the thought of telling my DD she can't dance anymore.
I don't know what I want from this post. And I know I have done wrong, any help, advice would be appreciated.

Hi OP,

Sorry to hear what's going on. We've moved the thread to parenting where you might get a few more responses.

All I can suggest is that you've heard nothing because they've nothing to say. My db sadly has had input from ss and where they are concerned they are on the ball and on your case (rightly), I think that as they are busy and overworked, the courtesy type follow ups get missed.
Please try not to worry, my dh has done this to my ds more than once.

i think if they said that no further action would be taken then that's the end of it?

is it SS or the police you've called for an update?

When you called the police for an update, did they give a likely timeframe for a decision?
I suspect they will be needing a report from the social worker and possibly school, HV, gp.
No comfort to you at all, I'm sure you are beside yourself with sorry.
May be worth a visit to GP to check why his nose marked so easily. Does he bruise often?
I hope you soon get the all clear and can put this behind you.

I have rung the police for update following being questioned and it is the police I am waiting for update from. SW had forgot about planned further appointment and is coming next week. As DS can be a problem sometimes he has his own mind and doesn't listen at home. He bruise like any other kid, the mark was on the very tip of his nose he did not cry or say it hurt so I thought nothing of it. I am meeting with my boss tomorrow. Thanks for you kind words it has really helped.

The SS will be able to see the great relationship you have with your child and realise there is no abuse going on. The fact that SW forgot the next appointment shows they seem satisfied with the explanation and aren't concerned. I know its easier said than done by try to relax. Im sure you will feel much better once youve spoken to your boss.

Spoke to boss on Friday and she told me not to worry about job. Heard nothing from police, but going to leave it now till I hear from them. Thanks again for kind words.