Can't cope with my new baby

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DS Was born on Tuesday. He sleeps during the day fine but won't sleep on a night. I literally can't cope anymore I've had hardly any sleep he just wants to feed all night long every night.
Ive been in tears all night and I just wish I could leave him in his crib and run away. It's gotten to the point where earlier when he was screaming I would have just left him to cry if it wasn't for DP who picked him up. I want my old life back and I just feel like I've made a massive mistake :(

MyNameIsKen - my 20 year old cousin asked me what having a baby was like. I told her to remember the feeling you get the day after a really REALLY heavy night out. Then to imagine feeling like that, but not being allowed to sleep it off.

Mynameisken - I am that soldier.

Dd 5 months will. Not. Fecking. Sleep. In. The. Day. Unless I walk for miles.

I'm doing 5 miles approx a day and putting ON weight due to the feckin cafe/cake/glass of wine stops.

Pffdttt.

Oh god, I have such a vivid memory of waking XP up and declaring that we had made a mistake and needed to take DS to his parents as we couldn't look after him. I was certain I couldn't do it and cried every day for the first 2 weeks. I wish I had shared these feelings with my MW as I was trying to pretend everything was okay.

OP, you are having a normal reaction to the first weeks of becoming a mum. It does get easier, I promise, hand on heart

Could your DP take him from 5am to 8am or something like that?

Oh God yes, lying down feeding is great. A back-lit e-reader and a smartphone are very useful too.

One last thing - you'll be great at being a mum. You're sleep-deprived, hormonal and scared and you still were able to do the wise thing and talk about how you feel/ask for help. Seriously, that's a very very good sign.