Hi, DS2 is 15 weeks old and probably because he is such hard work I am finding myself just wishing time away. DS1 was a very grumpy baby and needed constant movement and stimulation, hated the car seat, pram etc, basically I just carried him around til he could walk and he was very intense. I wished that first year away and to be honest didn't really enjoy him til he could talk at 16 months. DS2 is similar, doesn't want to just be cuddled or held but won't sit in car seat, pushchair etc. I hate this bit. I feel like a totally crap mum that twice I have had this experience. What is wrong with me? All my friends go cooing over babies and tell me how wonderful it is and I am just stood there thinking 'wtf??'.
We've had him on ranitidine incase he had reflux, he's dairy free incase he is intolerant, nothing seems to help. He is just miserable being a baby the same as DS1 was.
It feels like I am on edge all the time waiting for the next meldown to occur. The only thing that is remotely getting me through the days is that DS1 is now a lovely happy funny 4 year old so I know I can survive but I feel so guilty for not enjoying this. I so wanted it to be the happy experience everyone bangs on about but it's not. It's just endless soothing, feeding, crying, struggling to get him to nap. Where is the joy in that? I know I am rambling, probably just wanting a rant but I just do not see what is so great about the baby bit! Please offer any tips for me to at least get some enjoyment from this stage!