Travels with Zombie - Chemo Cycle 2 and beyond

[IamtheZombie]

The previous thread is approaching capacity so just preparing this one.

Link to previous thread here

The co-codamol did the job and I slept fairly well. I also slept most of the afternoon today.

Hoping for a bit more energy tomorrow. If not, I'll just sleep some more.

Sleep is good.

xxx

Good morning Zombie, glad to see that your pain killers did their job. Yes sleep must be very good for you, rather that than feeling ill.hope you have picked up a bit today. Are you still having injections ?
Enjoy the sunshine today and have fun with the three zombie cats !

Good morning zombie...

Hope you are still resting and getting over the worst of this round.

Please don't feel like you have to post. We will all be here regardless, cheering you on from all our different locations in the world take it easy, relax and make yourself stronger.

Today is mums first chemo. I'm armed with magazines and chocolate...the children are going to my mil so mum and are quite looking forward the the two hour break!

In other news my gorgeous 31 year old friend has been old she has stage 3 breast cancer. She is waiting to see if it's spread to her lungs or ribs

She found a small lump which was nothing to be worried about but her other breast was riddled with it (her words) she had no symptoms in the poorly breast which makes this so f**king terrible. She is on a one woman campaign to raise awareness in the under 35's.

Good morning Zombie, hope your aches and pains have now diminished and you are feeling a lot better. Don't know about where you are but it's a very dull day here today so no sitting in the garden for me. Oh oh here comes the rain !

barbie hope your mum gets on ok with her chemo. Shocking about your poor friend, lets hope she can be treated successfully.

Z hope your aches and pains are receding.

It's starting to feel a bit autumnal isn't it.

Barbie love and to you, and strength to support your mum and your friend.
They are lucky to have you.

Waves.

Waves back!

Hope you get a good rest tonight Zombie and have a good day tomorrow.

Barbie
What a lovely daughter and friend you are

P

Oops, stupid phone. Just popping in to say I'm still sending loads of good vibes your way, Zombie. Hope you get a good night's sleep.

Waves back to zombie and fellow followers.

how are you zombie? Feeling any better?

I spent 7.5 hours at the hospital yesterday

Mums chemo all went to plan, no bad reactions like they thought she might experience she did however fall asleep due to the piriton dose they can before the chemo...once she woke she had verbal diarrhea and giggled for about an hour

She has to have a picc line inserted before her next chemo which means another long session next Tuesday.

Then after arriving home I had a bleed and got rushed into the maternity unit to check I wasn't in labour (only 27 weeks)

It was a pretty draining day but we survived and we had plenty of giggles.....

SELF PITY ALERT

I am utterly fed up. I feel like crap. I can either do nothing except sleep or I can barely sleep at all. Every part of my body is battered by side effects. I'm only half way through my chemo and it will get worse with each cycle.

With my last chemo I had learned how to minimise the side effects by this point. This time there are just so many side effects. Side effects from the chemo itself. Side effects from the steroids. Side effects from the antibiotics. I am overwhelmed.

I have no choice but to keep muddling through. This won't last forever. I just don't know how I'm going to do it.

Not knowing what will come after this chemo doesn't help. I don't dwell on it but I can never forget that this time the treadmill may not have an end.

I just want my life back.

Oh Zombie. You have every right to self pity. I just know I would not be so brave as you have been. I am sorry you are feeling so shit tonight. And I can imagine the thought of the next treatment is quite alarming for you. BUT you are halfway through now and you can do this.Does it help if you have someone with you or not ? I wish I could do something to help you but I know this is something only you can do.
Whatever you do Zombie don't let this bastard illness beat you. You will be well again.

Oh Zombie you are indeed allowed to have a self pitying moment or two.

My mum's had a bad day today too, just feeling low and very tired and achey.

Thinking of you.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so low Zombie, but even the toughest warriors have a wobble occasionally and you are one of the toughest.

You will beat this, I know you will

Have you got any visitors lined up soon?

I'm not surprised you had a moment like that. I hope you had a good weep & feel a bit brighter this morning.

The wee small hours of the night are the worst time.

Big hugs. XXXXXXXXXXXX

This too shall pass. Xx

Oh Zombie I'm so sorry you're feeling so crap. But if anyone has a right to a moment of self pity, you do.

You WILL beat this Zombie. Lots of hugs & love.

Sending a comfy shoulder to lean on dear Zombie . You rest your head and weep if you need to . We will hug you gently .
Don't have knowledge directly of your chemo regime but do have others and it is brutal . Side effects as bad as the chemo oh yes .
Hold on lovely lady ....the darkness at night is awful for vulnerability and feeling fear . The dawn will come and strength come from the light.
You take care now. Gentle rocking hug to you x

Oh the bloody chemo fog as my mum calls it when you reach rock bottom and everything seems surrounded by fog so you can't see the sun and the way back to the top...

I'm sorry you are there right now zombie...

The good news is that the fog has to clear soon and the brightness will come back into your life and you will get your direction again. After all once you hit rock bottom the only way is up

Is there anything we can do for you? Would you like a little treat in the post? Please let us know how best support you, you will work it out and you will get better.

Much love to you x

Evening all. Thank you seems inadequate for all the lovely things you've said, your support and your love. But it's all I have to say.

I'm at that awkward stage where I'm half way through the chemo but not yet over the hump and on the downhill slope.

I've been trying to get my sleep pattern back on track but a new side effect has been scuppering that. Restless Legs. No matter how tired I am I just cannot get comfortable for more than 30 seconds before I start to wiggle. I managed to sort of get around that last night by sleeping in my chair snuggled under my WoollyHug. Inquisitive ZombieCats™ didn't help but I did manage about 5 hours eventually.

I've managed to do a couple of things today. I also had a nap. I'm going to dose myself up well with co-codamol and sleepy pills in a bit and hope I can get to sleep in my bed. If not, I'll come back to my chair, WoollyHug and the ZombieCats™.

My love to you all. xxx

Night night zombie sweet dreams my love x

Sorry it is all so horrible for you.

Hope that you manage to get comfortable and get some rest tonight so that you can be rested to help you face tomorrow.
I know every thing seems worse in the dark hours of early morning, so hope you are sleeping tight now.

If I remember, you've got a family birthday coming up soon, so I hope looking forward to that will cheer you.

Sweet dreams

Hi Zombie, glad to see that you eventually got some sleep albeit in your chair.Tomorrow is another day and hopefully some of your horrible symptoms will at least start to ease off.
I am sure zombie cats enjoyed extra time with their mum ! Here's wishing you a much brighter day tomorrow. In my thoughts x

The good news is that I slept last night. The better news is that I slept today. Sleep I can cope with.

Ummm... That's really all there is to report. xxx