Glad you're ok Carla and hope you are receiving the help you need.
There was clearly something going on last time you were posting, even before the 'nice warm bath' thread which was too close to home for me to post on.
If posting here helps you in any way, then do come back, but I'm not sure it's the best thing for you tbh, and I tend to agree with Soapy and MB, although I also don't think there's point in a name change.
I'm happy for you to return, but I'm sure you'll understand if I give you a wide berth if you should happen to post cryptically again. 
I think that your Mum writing a book for your girls is lovely news.