Rainingopal · 30/07/2020 19:59
Hi, newbie here. Not much to say, I'm 28 soon, still live at home, the past few years have been awful. From going to living with my 3 siblings and parents to just me, dad and one of my brothers to say the least. Anyway I work at a fast food chain and go back Monday so be good to get some more money again and do something. I have a wonderful boyfriend and I live in Somerset.
Now because of the past few years, my anxiety, ocd and depression have gotten worse and Covid 19 hasn't helped, that's the icing on top. My self confidence, self esteem aren't here anymore. I have gotten so used to being debilitated at times by my anxiety, how I think of myself, I don't even get angry at myself anymore when I can't do something. For example and please don't be upset with me, I had applied to work at a supermarket and it seemed perfect, aside from the fact that I would have to do a video interview, and I can do phone interviews, face to face interviews, but never this. I was trying to think positively and somehow gain the courage to answer it when today came. Well it didn't happen. I just froze. I felt uncomfortable, even scared which is so silly. They did it again, I froze again. Now I will have to somehow contact them, I don't want to lose this opportunity and feel awful for wasting their time.
So yeah, my life is a mess but maybe it will get better once I have the money to get hypnotherapy, anxiety has taken so much from me.
Pelleas · 30/07/2020 20:07
I'm sorry to hear your anxiety is affecting your ability at job interviews. Do you think when you get back to your present job at the food chain it might help build your confidence back up again? There's something about video meetings that makes them more intimidating than face to face meetings, so I doubt you are the only one who froze - don't give up.
There are lots of posters here with experience of anxiety - hopefully you will be able to get some good recommendations for online resources you could try while you're waiting for the hypotherapy.
Wishing you luck!
Pelleas · 30/07/2020 20:21
Just to add, if you don't get many responses here, try starting a thread in the mental health topic (link below) mentioning anxiety in the title.
Rainingopal · 30/07/2020 21:13
@Pelleas thank you, yes my job should hopefully give me some confidence back
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