A previous post really resonated with me, I'm so fed up of myself, I wish I could change my personality
I'm either really quiet, struggling to find something to say with awkward silences, or when I get confident around someone I talk a load of childish rubbish non stop,
I hate both versions of me, I have diagnosed ASD and psychiatrist said almost certain ADHD (but wasn't being paid to assess that at the time)
People just don't want me around, I'm torn because on the one hand I feel lonely and left out, but on the other I find people exhausting and want solitude
I used to mask ALOT but as I get older that skill seems to be slipping
I joined a ND meet up group, the first few times were OK as "quiet" me went, now I getting more relaxed "annoying" me came out last time, and I get the feeling that even a ND group will get fed up of me
I suppose I want a personality transplant but that's not possible what the hell do I do?
Anyone feel the same? Have any ideas?
Thanks x