Starting to panic a bit

[hiddenhome2]

I have my asd assessment on Friday. I'm paying privately with savings that I'll need to replace next year.

I'm so scared that I've got this all wrong and I don't have it I feel as though I do, but what if I don't? What will I be then?

I've trawled through my social services record and it's littered with observations of how I didn't join in with other children and how I didn't form relationships with them. Anxiety, tantrums, disturbed, a phobia, withdrawal, but what if it was just down to my disrupted childhood? Surely it wouldn't have meant that I'd spend my entire life avoiding social situations and others. It wouldn't explain the sensory difficulties would it?

A horrible comment from a psychiatrist which described me as 'superficial and self-centred' I was only five. It seems like a harsh thing to write

What if I'm just a weird, antisocial misfit with a bad history?

Well done disorganised !!!!!!!

I have finished my assessment and I have Aspergers!!!!!!!

The relief is enormous!

I feel as though I could burst!!!! At last I know what's wrong with me!!!

I'm on the bus home.

Lots of good news today :o
Congratulations Hidden

It's fantastic for us.

I belong in the world after all

Woooo hooooo hidden. We belong somewhere!!

We certainly do

We're not weird!!!

This is epic

I'll be back later as am at boys' Nativity play!!

Very pleased for you Hidden. Great news. It is good to belong isn't it?

'Belong'........it's a nice feeling

I'm knackered now. I want to go to bed, but I can't move with the tiredness

I got quite a shock going into the city centre though as I haven't been for many years. There were so many beggars on the streets and lots of what appeared to be mentally ill people wandering around shouting at each other there was a bag lady in the bus station who was carrying about 20 plastic carrier bags. Sad sights care in the community?

Hi all. I agree with hidden in that it's nice to belong and nice to feel that I haven't been going mad all these years.

Hi Polter

Still feeling tired, but quite a bit happier than a couple of days ago

Hope you are well.

I wonder how disorganised is.

Hi all .Unfortunately we've had the day from hell with the boys who have fought all day and we are both totally drained with it all.Ds2 keeps winding ds1 up (he has aspergers too).We're trying to do a nice thing as a family-putting the Christmas decs up but it has been a disaster.

Anyway,that said I am so much happier but I'm not quite sure what to do now and how to get through christmas.I've been recommended "women adngirls with aspergers" by Sarah Henrickx which is on order. Dh has found it very hard today.He has been very stressed with work and about our relationship.Not sure how to fix us.

Don't make any decisions about your relationship until next year disorganised

Stress clouds the thinking and struggling with dc issues and Xmas will be stressful for you. Have you been to couple counselling?

We are planning to have couples counselling but now I have been dx I'm wondering if I need to look for a counsels that's more specialised- who can understand the issues that a couple with one partner one the spectrum can face. Much as I am pleased for myself in having the dx,Dr Gould actually said that being diagnosed/ having a label was critical to me personally be able to tick a box and we'll help with my need to compartmentalise everything. However I do worry massively the impact that it will have on dh who has been having his own issues. I'm worried that people will think that my having Aspergers will be an excuse for me not being able to cope with some things.

I've read the Sarah Hendrikx book. It is very good.