I'm probably coming into this very late but I have an appointment with my GP next week to see about getting a referral for an assessment. Hopefully I'll be taken seriously and won't be turned away.
I've had suspicions that I might be on the spectrum for years to be honest however it was only within the last couple of years when I found out how females often present differently to males on the spectrum that I became 99.9% sure that I have AS. All the articles, interviews, etc about females on the spectrum just seem to describe me pretty much down to the last detail.
I posted this on another thread but I'll re-post this here, pretty much why I think I'm on the spectrum, it's mostly the main points I've expanded on and I've added a couple more points but here it goes:
*Social situations - I've always struggled big time with social situations. It may seem odd but I don't 'get' social niceties that other people seem to have no problem with. I don't always know when it's my turn to speak or what is appropriate to say and I will often just blurt out the first thing that comes into my head and go on about it for ages without actually realising that other people are getting fed up of me.
*I've been told that I'm emotionally cold before. I find it hard to express emotions, for instance when talking about a serious issue such as death I can never express how I feel and I've been told I come across as emotionally cold and uncaring because of this. I find it very hard to express a lot of emotions actually, not just empathy but also happiness. People have told me that they have a hard time 'reading' me because I'm so emotionally closed off and I've been told that nobody can actually tell whether I'm happy or not, even when I am, because I just honestly don't know how to show it.
*I'm quite daydreamy and away with the fairies a lot of the time - I'll often randomly drift off into a daydream and get a spaced out look on my face without realising it.
*I like routine and I have a basic routine which I stick to all the time and if it gets interrupted or has to change for some reason I get upset and teary. I've even had panic attacks before when my routine has been disturbed.
*Obsessions - I've always went through phases where I will become fixated on a particular topic for a long period of time. These can be anything from 'normal' and socially acceptable things such as TV shows and celebrities to 'weird' things such as lists and numbers. When I become fixated on that topic it is literally all I think about and I will want to research whatever the topic is and gather every piece of information I can about it. I will also want to talk about it constantly and want to read/watch whatever it is I'm fixated on at the time over and over again. Right now I'm obsessed with the X Files and am constantly thinking about it, scouring the web for information, interviews, fan fiction, etc on it and am also watching episodes non stop on repeat. Again if I can't do this then I get upset.
*Sensory issues - I hate being touched, hate hugs and yes I hate sex and other intimate things like that such as kissing. I just can't stand having someone that physically close to me, it makes me cringe. Of course I do these things because I feel I have to but I hate every second of it. I'm also very sensitive to noise, loud noises especially seem to grate right through me. As a kid I hated things like parties and the like because all the noise would be too much for me and I'm still like that today - I hate nightclubs because of the noise and the lights, it's just too much for me.
*I'm also very sensitive to food and have a very limited diet because of this. You could say I'm a very fussy eater but it's because certain foods feel horrible in my mouth and I can't stand them being there. I know some people find adults who are fussy eaters a pain but I honestly can't help it. The texture of so many foods is just horrible to me and makes me gag. I'm even very sensitive to the smell of lots of food - someone could be eating a banana in another room without me realising it but I'll be gagging from the smell of it.
*Tics - this is embarrassing but I've always had the annoying habit of having to clap or flap my hands repeatably
. I do this when stressed or very happy but I always go somewhere private to do it. Again I always feel like I 'need' to do this to get it out of my system. Another tic I have is bouncing - again embarrassing to do that as an adult but I do this again when happy and I 'need' to do this.
Those are the main things that spring to mind, however the more I read about females on the spectrum (even though I've been told that's a bad idea) the more I notice little things as well that fit me. I struggle in work situations and struggle to hold down jobs often not even making it past the probationary period, I burn bridges, I will often cry and have a 'meltdown' because of emotional overload and will do this any place including in public...honestly like I said in another thread those are just small snapshots of why I'm convinced I'm on the spectrum. If I was to write down every last detail and expand on those details of why I think I'm on the spectrum it would be a bloody very long winded essay.