my daughter not dying from pph. when they wheeled her back into the room, after hours in theatre, cosied up in a bear-hugger, seeing her smile (weakly) at me.
bfg daughter to 4yrs 3 months. being exceptionally close with the little one, co-sleeping, cuddling forever.
seeing her beautiful face when she was born, the black hair in backwards-6s curls and thinking 'oh, here i am again' because she was exactly as my mum has described me.
waking up next to my new born baby, day after day, and 'falling in love' with her again. every day. amazing.
being full of milk! so long ago...
granddaughter running to meet me at the door, inviting me in, wanting a grandma-cuddle. being a 'donkey' and a climbing frame for granddaughter.
when daughter went up to be confirmed and the family stood in support.
daughter walking herself down the aisle to be married. beautiful, gothic, capable.
every time i see daughter and son in law being happy together. we prayed for that boy and God sent hm.
in the monastery at gorton when the universe opened before me.
my nde.
seeing pulp at manchester apollo and having an out-of-body-one-with-the-universe experience.
a bit sour but - when unpleasant newly-ex raised his arm to hit me and i was able to say 'go on then, hit me, and i'll see you in court'.
every snuggly cuddle from my baby, now and always.
you just asked for one, didn't you? sorry. got carried away. cried a lot, too.