Aghh just typed humungus message and its disappeared!As I was saying, sent to my bed at 9pm as H wants to sleep downstairs, I wake up in the mornings and dont know where I am anymore, last night it was Beccas bed as she was on a s/over!I feel so bloody sorry for him,he is very very tired, weak, cant eat, red raw rash which is driving him insane.He looks nothing like the person he was in Jan when this whole bloody bloody thing started again. Its been very hard for the kids, I have noticed in the last couple of weeks that they have stopped asking him to do things, even help with their maths homework(not my forte!), almost a sad acceptance of the situation.It took 13 years after my lovely Matthew died to really believe that life was good again, a new life, still tinged with sadness for him, but a life we could live. Then this, a new life again, not of our choosing, its not fair. Yet I feel strangley calm and in control, probably the "happy" pills from the doc, its just that sometimes I feel I need to cry, but I cant, cant even remember the last time I did. I am beginning to feel so lonely, he is here........but he isn`t, if you can understand that...
Now, where is everyone these days, must I do another head count? Momma you have been too quiet too long, get back here quick with the Mojitos:o