D'y ever wonder how many of the multi mums are pregnant again?

[MarsLady]

no idea wats goin on , but nice 2 c sum chat.
off 2 bed now as 'tudors' exhausted me. sex, heds chopd n sex n sex wit strangrs...poor hubby, no chance 2nite.

hugs n be well.xx.

Oh I love the Tudors.......guess its poor old Annes turn next week!

Mr Punch....I saw you hit her......................oh no you didn`t!

I am off to bed, am tired, so hopefully

1, Gladys will not leak

2, Tinnitus will not ring too loudly

3, Kids won`t wake me up

4, H won`t keep waking up to empty Gladys

5, I won`t have a panic attack

6, I won`t worry abut my brother (I already am)

7 I won`t have a hot flush

Thats about it for tonight xxxxx

Someone please say goodmorning to Shabs for me, where is that girl?

Somewhere along the line I've missed the bit about your brother Trips! Where in London is he? Which hospital?

FG write that blardy roundup please. I'm lost and confused and you know I don't like that!

Oh Trips - Im sorry I am so late. I will be thinking of your brother and neighbour. I feel very down and agitated. Ive been up to Chelles tonight with Joanne. On the way home I missed the kerb and have fallen into the road. Please believe me when I say I was NOT drunk in any way shape or form. My leg hurts and both my hands. I felt such a fool and just jumped up and tried to laugh it off.

I am tired of being Elanor Rigby...so tired of making everyone laugh. I looked in the mirror when we arrived home and just thought 'OMG how did you begin to look that old.'

Dont feel I can cope anymore...sick of being the woman who makes everyone smile, who is strong, who says she doesn't care that she has no nice clothes and is overweight. Tired of listening to folks problems - present company excepted.

Right, enough moaning, I will see you all in a few hours. H is ......having a go saying all kinds of awful stuff.

Feel like packing my suitcase and pissing off to Greece. xxx

We're here for you Shabs! You don't have to be the strong one here.

Morning girls.

Thanks Mars - This is the only place I can really speak my mind so that helps xxx

Ta Rubester.

Im really, really sore this morning!! Tom was screaming and crying Yes, who did put that piggin' kerb there??

Tom starts High School tomorrow - I am totally dreading it - massive school with almost 2,000 pupils - loads of them really rough kids.

Have to have a quiet word with Matt and Gareth tonight I think

Good luck tomorrow sweetheart xx

Oh Shabs, me and you are in the same boat today and I feel as though I havent got my life jacket on! Just had a diazapma for breakfast and made a docs appt for 10.30am. Had a sore pain in my chest by my left bobo for 4 days, so thats worrying me. Phoned the hospital this morning and my brother is now in surgery, feel so so anxious about him and just want to be there as hes all alone. Kids were so naughty at bedtime that I just wanted to cry, slept badly and so feel like shite this morning, very low and panicky. I am so sick of this year. I truly need a holiday. I jusy know I need to get away from here, and I would like nothing more than a lovely lodge on the side of a lake, kids out in the fresh air, H sat fishing, a hot tub and sauna for me and no people around us...............ha ha dream on! Better get off to docs, oh Mars my brother is in St Thomass, as I type he is in theatre having his by pass done and I know he is in good hands but hes not a very brave soul and I worry about him, he lives on his own and has a daughter who lives 5 mins away and she didnt even go to see him yesterday before he went in. My neighbour the kids godmother is also in theatre now having her bowel tumour removed. Its all too much. We have been trying to find an affordable room in London to go up at the w/end to see him and have a break ourselves, the accomodation at the hospital is fully booked and everything else is so expensive as we would have to book 2 rooms, so well see. Right better go and see if she has some magic potion for me!

Right girls, the sun is shining here. I think we need to write down three things each that we are pissed off about and see if we can come up with some solutions for each other. If that is a shite idea then lets just make a pot of tea and eat biscuits. Then we can chat about the weather.

OK:

1. I am still sad on the inside about Steven and I am sad I won't see him again to tell him some things. I am also fed up with myself for not being able to build a bridge and get over it! SNORE!!!!!

1. I am fed up always having to think twelve steps ahead. I would like to have a mental holiday from thinking and worrying.

1. I have issues with my mum. I feel guilty for having issues.

Back later. Got a counselling appointment at 11am and then got to take my mum/gran to Tesco.

Good luck trips, will be thinking about you. I'm sending love your way xxxxxx. Just look up, it'll likely make a drip down your coat like bird poo Its a horrible feeling when you feel you can't do something isn't it? Somehow being in London would have made you feel you could do something for your brother.....focus on tomorrow........what will you be telling us then.......he'll need you most when he's home darling.

Shabs, how does Tomboy feel about going?

Trips holding you in my heart today.

Frumpy - Tommy keeps crying and teenage stamping about! I am being positive with him about all the good bits (though struggling to find more than a couple myself!)

He is a very different kind of 11 year old to all the other kids who were in his class at Primary school. Loves to learn, is really bright and well behaved (at school at least!) He is very young in his head at the same time as being very bright.

All will be well......all will be well.

1. I am sick of being 'me!'

1. Sick of 'dreaming' about living in Greece. I am 51 FGS and I know it is not going to happen but acting like a petulant teenager.

1. Sick and tired of always being sick and tired (thanks to Anastasia for those words)

Trips, sending all positive vibes your way for your DB and your neighbour today. Shame I dont live in London anymore, you could have bunked with me for the weekend.

Shabs, poor Tom, sounds like he's got himself into a right pickle bout tomoz. He will be fine, he has his mums sense of humour and that should get him through

With regards to Greece I dont think you should ever stop dreaming about it as its the dreams that get us through sometimes isn't it ?

Ta V - to be honest the 'going to Rhodes to live' thing is really me running away from RL I think. It would be a Shirley Valentine situation - you know RL there would be just the same as here but with more sunshine

Lets dream for a bit then, what would you do when you got there ?

Errrr - go down into town and get a job pronto!! Then to either Takis, Nikos or Ged to find somewhere to live. See what I mean just like RL here!!!!

Are they people or places Takis, Nikos or Ged ?

Could have saved yourself a fortune, bet Tom would not have needed a jumper if he were to go to school out there ? Just shorts and T-shirts with flip flops

LOL Greek kids do go to school like that

Right Shabs......

By shabster on Mon 01-Sep-08 10:33:50

1. I am sick of being 'me!'

Can we/you change you? Can you be someone else if only for a little while? I'm thinking about volunteering because I want to have another side to my coin

1. Sick of 'dreaming' about living in Greece. I am 51 FGS and I know it is not going to happen but acting like a petulant teenager.

Don't you dare stop dreaming. Where the hell would any of us be without our dreams??? There is no reason in the world that means you might not be able to do it one day, even if that day is a longer way away than you would like. How much are greek lessons at the local school?

1. Sick and tired of always being sick and tired (thanks to Anastasia for those words)

You sent me The Dash. And anyway, I love you just the way you are, sick and tired or not.

Oh and Shabs, its ok to stop being the woman who makes everyone laugh. It can be fascinating when you change your behaviour. Who notices? Who doesn't? Who looks deeper inside and shows they care? Chuck off your label and let them join in the real world. Why are you holding them up?

And no I didn't arse up my bold bits.........I was just trying to draw attention to my replies so everyone would know I am not the 51 year old petulant teenager

I am fed up with being mum to everyone, adults and child alike. If I don't do it or tell someone to do it, nothing gets done, everything from shopping/cleaning/feeding to deciding where to go for a day. Xmas is coming people and it'll just mean a whole world of more work for me.

I hate that to move house I'll have to be dependant on my mum again. When will DH and I ever clear our debt and be able to start saving for a house of our own. A house totally unconnected to my hateful brother who once told me (he was serious) he'd set fire to our house and burn us all alive if he doesn't get a share of it when my mum dies. A house where my dad isn't on the phone to all and sundry telling them we're scrounging off my mum when it's her who wants to live with us in the first place.

I am fed up being me. I'm working on this one. Another 4 stone to go and then getting my degree should help with this.

Hi girls,
Been to the quacks and she says the pain in my breast is cartilege and as for my out pourings of all my problems she has put me on beta blockers for a month to see if they help, H is horrified, seems to see it all as a weakness! Back later, if anyone has time find me a room for 5 in london frid/sat for £100 a night, I need to escape. Love to you all, my soul mates xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx