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Sob sob sob.......pass the tissues...........just watched Long Lost Families on I-player........sob sob sob...........

Not you as well, Trips! I blubbered like a baby watching the father/daughter reunion. I love happy endings!

Same here Trips - so very touching. Even Tom was wiping a tear away watching it!

Morning girls xx

Morning. My pit last night didn't post! It misled me! Will catch up in a bit.

Afternoon ladies. I am 17 weeks today and already feeling butterflies - no hiding my bump now! Lol.

I expressed milk for the mama in SCBU today. She's asked me if I want to see the LO at visiting time. Should I say yes? I want to but I'm scared that seeing ill babies would upset me.

I'd say yes. From the pov that you will get to see the baby you are helping. I know it's upsetting but mum obviously thinks very highly of you and the help you are giving as ordinarily they wouldn't let you in.

I remember the day Scbu told me They wanted to send Joshua to me from Scbu onto post natal. I completely panicked! I begged them not to (I was a wreck and they have me an hour's notice). I begged that they keep the twins together as it was important to me they not be separated. In the end I gave myself a shake and said if they could keep him until after lunch, I'd fetch him over when dh arrived.

When I went back after visiting to see Jennifer, and took Joshua with me, I was pleasantly pleased to see an old school friend's baby occupying 'his' space. Because they'd moved Joshua out, they'd been able to move her baby out of nicu. It gave her hope that her little girl was going to be ok. We've since stayed in touch as the babies birthdays are only a few days apart. It's crazy to see how her 31 weeker is huge now compared to the twins.

Trips - have you considered turning the allotment into a wildlife haven? No worrying about the nettles then.

Work worries here today. Am going to be disabled off by the look of it due to my pnd being a severe underlying medical condition. My boss is/was coming out tomorrow to disclose my ohp report and stupidly I agreed before i got hold of the union for some attending support. Now the union rep can't make it unless boss gets him relieved from duty. Which he's refusing to do, says I've had plenty of time to organise it.

Have sent a polite but blunt email saying I've only had since Friday and in hindsight I should not have agreed to the meeting without confirming representation, but I didn't want to be seen as obstructive given my boss had not contacted me on our agreed day/time.

I don't care whether they sack me or whatever. I'm not going back whatever happens. But he's just so damn persistent I can see him turning up tomorrow regardless. Union have to me I don't have to let him in. I think I might go out for the afternoon to avoid the confrontation though, especially as I have told him 3 times now I cannot do it. The guy emailed me, then as soon as the email came through (I'd not read it as was driving), he rang my mobile. 4 times one after the other. C'mon, take the hint that I couldn't answer the phone after at least the second time.

I said yes and went to see the LO. She's so adorable and bigger than what I expected she looks just a bit smaller than the twins who were born at 37+3!

I got to say hello and was there when they gave her milk through the feeding tube. I've told the mama I'll express as much as I can for her but to let me know via text when she's popping home for shower and sleep so I can express and send her off with some milk to pop in freezer.

I think I have a new friend. We text and swap baby/toddler updates. We also moan and gossip. When I come for my scan in about 3 weeks, her baby may be going home!

Seeing all those babies needing special care did upset me but it was nice to see that every baby had someone there talking to them or holding their hand. Very moving.

Sok - I think that's stalkerish behavior. There's no need for him to be calling you over and over if you don't answer. That's harassment if you ask me. He's an idiot. Stick to your guns and fuck him and his lousy attitude towards you.

Had a reply via email, 10 minutes before the end of shift so no chance of getting hold of union after (a deliberate act methinks). Boss is insistent that he will be coming out and spouting bollocks about contractual obligations. Even though this is so he can show me a report I already have a copy of.

Obviously I tried unsuccessfully to get hold of union. They will get the message first thing. In the meantime, dh has said if I don't want to go out to avoid possible confrontation, I shouldn't have to. And has arranged for a friend to be with me. He's one of these lovely gents who doesn't suffer fools gladly and won't be polite in telling them if needed. So I needn't worry about feeling intimidated, and if the message isn't being heard from me, he is quite happy to tell my boss to fuck off.

My DH is like that. He has no problem giving someone what for if they're upsetting someone he cares about. Very alpha male about it haha.

Hope things get sorted out!

Unable to sleep tonight. I miss DH I've haven't slept alone in 5 years. I hate it not having him here. God I'm so sappy and sad tonight.

and Im a blubbering wreck, just watched another Long Lost Families..........so sad and so happy at the same time......... Mama it wont be much longer, you have been so patient, you will soon be home. xx

Trips - programs like that always make me cry. You watching the last series of it? I could never understand giving up my baby just being away from them cripples me. Those poor mothers!

I'm patient on the outside but inside I'm an impatient git who's so close to signing herself out, out of stubbornness. Haha.

Morning girls xx

Hope it gets sorted soon Sok. xx

Good morning, ladies.

Ruby - I hope so too.
Sok - Good luck for today!

I expressed about 18oz this morning, and have boobs full haha.

It's my father's birthday, today. I'm glad I bought his present early before I was in hospital. My father is the best. He stood by me when I got pregnant at 17, he raised me after my mama died despite his grief and pain. He always told me how proud he was of me. He never failed to tell me he loved me despite his hesitance to talk of feelings (Russian trait). I wouldn't be where I am today without him; he's my inspiration and I love him so much. Happy Birthday, Father!

Soks- if its a long standing illness you would be protected under the Disability Discrimination Act. You therefore do not have to see your boss without representation and would be in your rights to send him packing and even bring a case for harassment. Are they sending any one from OH dept with your boss? they should do that as well fir your protection. Hope you sort it.
Mama- its lovely donating BM, isn't it, I did it after I had the boys as I was like daisy the cow, producing absolutely loads, and the boys were only on 5ml an hr at that point, I already had lots frozen, so was well able to spare some, 2babes benifitted, I am still in touch with 1 mum, but not the other. Fingers crossed for getting out this week.
Trips/Shabs/Ruby - trying to catch up with programme s on iplayer, so expect to be in tears myself today.

Happy Birthday to Mamas wonderful dad

Wow mama! 18oz :D (I'm in awe. I was happy expressing 6oz when the twins were on 3oz each.

The general result of the report is work need to consider me as disabled as the pnd has been present over a year, and I had a period before with ds1.

There would have been a woman from hr attending as note taker, but she would have been there for my manager rather than me. But that's fair enough and I wouldn't expect otherwise.

This morning I got cc'd into an email from my rep to manager saying I was entitled to have a union rep present if I wished, that the contractual obligation is to maintain contact only, and that telephone and electronic contact counts therefore he cannot force a visit. And he's to contact rep if he wishes to discuss the matter further.

I have also received a phonecall from manager today. He wanted me to explain myself and wouldn't simply accept I want my union rep there because I need their support (I don't understand the process this far in) as its getting quite intense. He just kept on and on trying to get me to give in, or at least that's how I felt. So I ended up telling him I felt he was badgering me and that if he continued I'd end the call. Well he didn't get the hint so after taking him twice more, I hung up. Then burst into tears. It's exhausting! I now have a horrid headache but at least James is content to snuggle up to me right now and the babies are going down for a nap shortly.

Have emailed both rep and dh. Dh wants me to ring him but right now i'll just end up crying more. I cried at bloody doc mcstuffins ffs.

At least so far this afternoon manager hasn't had the idiocy to turn up. Although quite what he thought the phonecall would achieve I don't know.

soks I haven't worked in years and it is all over my head, but it sounds horrendous and I do hope you get it sorted out soon xx

great going, mama! I used to be like that, I could express 2 and half bottles easily and I thought about donating. I think it is brilliant that you actually did it. The odd thing that put me off in the end, is because i was expressing more than I needed, I tried freezing it, but it always smelled off after defrosting. It just seemed to go off really quickly and then the dts wouldnt drink it. Was very strange!

I tried watching that Long Lost families. I found it quite hard to understand the emotions considering the people had never met each other before? I guess it is one of those things that are hard to understand if you haven't experienced it. It was lovely to see them so happy at being reunited though.

The sun is actually shining here today, it is lovely out and I've been makign the most of it. The racecourse is being put back to normal and I could get out there to run again today.

Sok - I don't even get sore boobs if I don't express. I must have super boobs or something. It's been the same when I was breastfeeding eldest two. I just seems to keep on supplying haha.

Twins usually have 12oz plus bf per day and night but since I've been in hospital I've been expressing 30oz per twin per day. Urgh! Haha.

Chops - I usually just express once in the morning and store in fridge to use at lunch and tea. So weird expressing more than once!

T1's levels have dropped, again but they've done all they can. It's basically up to me to rest & drink and T1 to continue to grew and improve. Little fighter!

However because of this and their "it's upto you" attitude I can go home on Friday. Best rest for a week plus scan, and then light activities until 20+3 week scan.

Morning girls xx

Morning, packing this morning for CP, hospital this pm!
Rubes and Chops when do you both go, you must be getting soooo excited :)

GOOD MORNING, THE MUMSNET FAMILY!