D'y ever wonder why its ALWAYS this time of night when we start a new thread!!

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Still searching the shag pile for my Faliraki flip flops!!!

less than 5 hours sleep...................I am going to be a wreck.
Morning girls :)

Morning girls xx

Morning girls xx You OK Trips? xx

Happy, happy, happy 28th birthday to my glorious Matty. Miss you more than words can say my dear boy.

Ruby I will private message you later on today.

Trips - sending my dearest love to you xxxxxxxxx

Morning girls xx

Thinking about you Trips xxx

Morning girls xx

Morning girls xx

Thinking about you Trips xxx

Hi Shabs &Trips. You both have been in my prayers over the past week.Trips- how is your Mum this week? Did the boys have a good trip?
Ruby- you ok?

Here I am..............my lovely Mum died at 12.40am this morning. My brothers and have not left her side since we were told she was dying last Thurs. It has been distressing as she has suffered alot of pain, I will never forget this last 5 days. Feel lost tonight. x

xxx to you my dearest friend Shabs xxx

Oh my dear dear friend I am so very sad to hear about your Mum. I dread the day this happens to me, that sounds very selfish but I don't mean it to. I dont know how to help or what to say - other than I am very sad for you. Sending the most massive hugs across many miles. Always here for you, always xxxx

Oh Trips just a thought, she will have met up with your Dad again AND your Matthew. xxxxx

I hope so Shabs, she was in so much pain, it can`t all be for nothing. Am in a daze, cannot believe this time last night I was stood holding her hand. Poor poor mum, I will love you forever. xxxx

I hope, with all my heart, that I do not offend or upset you when I say this (that would never be my intention) but if I was in as much pain as your Mum obviously has been I would not want to carry on. When my much loved FIL died I remember my DH saying 'I am going to miss him BUT its not my fault and I dont feel responsible.' He meant that losing his Dad was so much more natural than losing his sons. It didn't diminish his love for his Dad but he celebrated his Dads life. As I always say I dread the day this happens to me (very selfish!!) and I wish I was stood with you now to hold you and cry with you xxxx

Oh Trips, darling, I am so sorry to hear this. I've been lurking and checking in, waiting for news and thinking of you. I hope you get some rest now, and am thinking of you still xxx

Hi........thank you girls, its been such an odd day............I have gone into auto pilot mode. Cleaning loos late last night, sweeping up the garden at 7am, worked worked all day. Have to keep my mind going, keep busy just like I did when Matthew died. I had a 90 min call today from Social Services who are starting their investigation into the care home on Frid. So terrible what they did to my mum.Still cannot believe she is gone. Night night. xx

Morning girls xx

Thinking about you Trips - all my family send their love xxxx

Goodmorning Shabs..............feel so strange, its all unreal. Dreading seeing todays local paper. All I keep saying is "poor poor Mum". I had a 90 min phone call y/day from Mums care plan manager taking details of the so called nursing care Mum had in the home. She is going out there tomorrow to start an official investigation. Don`t need all this besides losing Mum and so much to think of:(

Thinking of you trips xxx

Is there anything I can help you with Trips? Dont mind at all - maybe phone calls or emails to people? If you think of anything please let me know. OMG I wish so much I lived round the corner from you to help more. 'The miles are very frustrating.' xxxx

Thank you Shabs, just nice seeing your message. Though what I wouldn`t give to have an apple juice and long chat with you. x
Thank you Chops, Bubs, Rubes, you are all such good good people who now feel like a family to me. x
A difficult and fraught day. Had to go back to the hospital this pm to collect the certificate, then back to the ward to give the girls a hamper of goodies for their support and kindness. We bumped straight into Mr Rix, mums consultant who spoke to us on Mon and said if he had been here he would have done things differently. Too late. Mums room was the first side room, someone else was in there, and all we could see was a foot........with gangrene. It made my heart turn over. Came back at 4pm and it was all hell here. Too long to explain but Thomas and Rebecca bot have been totally out of order, rude, slefish and in fact very unkind to me. I sat in my shed with Harry and we both could have cried with it all. Thank God for James. Tomorrow I have to go with my brother to register the death..............hate hate saying that. Then the funeral directors.........all unbearable. I just keep seeing her poor poor face lying in that bed and it breaks my heart for her. Could someone else do the trolley tonight? Night night. x

I have cider apple juice, ouzo, red and white wine, pickled onion monster munch, chip butties, onion barjees (sp???) chicken madras, rice, and big chunky home made chips (cause I is a posh bird!!) a massive dish of chocolate nuts, some tassels and..... Nikos (the beautiful one) with a bunch of grapes, a small knife and the ability to peel them and feed them to Trips one at a time.... xxxx