Hello @ClusterFukt we're really sorry to hear you are feeling this way. We're afraid we don't allow posts discussing methods of suicide and so we've edited your OP. We appreciate you're just venting but if you or anyone on this thread needs mental health support, please take a look at our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

There are also several orgs that can help with financial difficulty and the National Debtline offers a free advice service.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We wish you the very best.