DD also will have her end of secondary (16) school trip next June. That will cost me about 1000 euros. It´s totally non negotiable that she goes on it, so I will need to save for that too. I mean, I just can´t on a moral level say she can´t go.
If I got really desperate I think my brother would help me out a bit with the loans but he´s helped me out before and I don´t want to ask unless totally desperate.
It´s more the future that´s worrying me. They way they have done it is so shitty as well, a company wide email basically saying "things are shit and we have to tighten our belts, there will be redundancies" but no more than that. There´s a department meeting in another week with more info apparently, but I expect that will be more of the same vague doom without any actual details.
I can´t do anything at the moment because realistically there´s nothing to train for that I would get employed in at 50 plus and foreign, no other jobs as good as this and if I leave I lose any possible future redundancy. So it´s just staying put and fretting until the axe falls, maybe in 2 years, maybe in 5 maybe never.
Ugh. Feel like such a financial failure.