had been doing so well but feeling low again.

[Pinkchampagne]

I found out I had had a MMC at my 12 week scan, back at the very end of March. It would have been my first child with DP.

Seem to have been so much stronger in myself recently. Had lost track of exactly how many weeks ago it had happened (at first, every Tuesday I would think, 1 week ago today..2 weeks ago today...) & was trying to be as positive as possible & look to the future. However, these last couple of days I have been feeling low again. I think it is because I know I would have been due to have my 20 week scan about now. It seems to have triggered me off again.

No one around me knows I am feeling like this, as I feel that everyone would expect me to be over it by now, so it is only on here that I am admitting this relapse.

We have decided not to think of trying for another until our house situation is all sorted (are looking to move soon), and part of me is scared that this was our one and only chance of a child together. I have 2 boys from my marriage to ex h, but was looking forward to having a child with DP, as I never got any support with ex h during my pregnancies. It was going to be a whole different experience & one we were looking forward to. It was even due on DP's 40th birthday.

Is it normal to have relapses like this so long after?
I guess it is the whole scan thing in my head, and maybe I have a touch of PMT!

[dizzydixies]

chapmers come back to the thread please, I think we're beyond who's thread it is, you and loopy are keeping me going

[Lynli]

When do you stop having lapses? For me 10 years and counting so I will let you know. I do have a son of nine though.I too find PMT a real trigger and just have a good cry to let it out. There is no reason to think this was your last chance, you know what they say "new house new baby". The best of luck to you.

[Pinkchampagne]

Thank you, Lynli. It helps to know these lapses are normal. I am due my period in a few days so sure that isn't helping.
I really hope it wasn't our only chance. You know how the mind can click to the negative after something like this.

Dizzy - I am still on the other thread, just didn't want to clutter it with all this.
How are you feeling today?

[dizzydixies]

champers please don't think of it as cluttering am doing ok, had the Dr this morning but lovely friends have been keeping me busy all day

[Pinkchampagne]

Glad to hear your friends have been looking after you, dizzy.