GP has very gently suggested that it may be time to stop trying.

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I dont know how to feel about it. on one hand im almost relieved, on the other i feel that it would be such a waste.

a waste of 3.5y.

a waste of all the energy that we've poured in.

a waste of all the dreams that i had for our family.

i feel like such a failure, that ive failed dh and ds as well as all of my lost beans.

but maybe it is time to call it a day. concentrate on my degree and try to build new dreams and a new future for us all.

fuck it, i dont want to make this decision. i half wish that the docs would say - nope lissie, you will never have any more dc's. this is it.

thank you all so much. dh and i have decided to give it one more push. give it a year. if i get pg and mc again before the year is up then we will (try to) draw a line under it. shall call cons again next week/