happy birthday to you girl!!!! 30? 35? 40? please dont say 21!!! oh i hope your birthday lifts you. a birthday cake? oh how lovely. i made my own last year.....sad huh? so youre close to your son birthdate wise? how nice. in this house so far, no-one shares a birthday month. good job really, my kids are very territorial about them! to day i had some horrible feeling s towards a pg woman....and now i feel bad, but i cant bear to know its still happening successfully everywhere but here with me. you know after a D&c at our maternity hospital, they make your dh go get the car -cause youre abit wobbly from the op still- and they sit you in the entrance lounge to wait. its absolutely full of huge 'in labour' sized pg ladies, and over the moon new dads, all making phone calls. and last time just little me, in the corner of much happiness, feeling so very sad. i've told dh i'm not waiting there ever again. as its a maternity hosp. they cant really help it, but it feels so deliberate at the time.
stupidly have been to an internet site about misdiagnosed m/c. think i told you this already (sorry) anyhow i did leave my 'story' and got lots of replies. most saying not ot have a d&c and how bad they were for you, and how at my scan measurements they could be wrong about dates and it could all be terrible..etc etc....so instead of finding comfort, i got very upset. am trying to write site off as over zealous prolife type sort of place, but of course somethings they said stuck in my head. why oh why do i do the internet research thing??
okay so thats not a very happy birthday post is ti. so sorry. tell me all about your little low key gifts, and what sort of meal youre having a the weekend.
bella thankyou for positive thought. i conceived mollie (youngest dd) within 3 mths of my d&c last time. i do really think a d&c is prob quite good at getting it all fresh and ready for next time, however awful it is for us to go thro. i must add i was a total wreck during last pg, obviously. despite being promised many scans, i only got one early one. if i ever do this again, i am paying for private ones all the time to reassure me. tell me, are you all doing it again?