I need to type this out because perhaps it’ll ease the pain, perhaps I’ll find a handhold whilst I think my DH is being insensitive. Maybe it’s me overreacting.
For context been trying for 2 years, various problems, much wanted baby. I already have a 7yo from previous partner when young.
Last Thursday at 8 weeks pregnant we were told we should expect the heartbeat to stop as it was too slow, it was perfect at 7 weeks. We have to wait until this Thursday at 9 weeks to see if it’s stopped beating yet, and how to manage it medically/surgically etc.
I said to my partner are you doing anything for Mother’s Day because it might be a bit bitter/slipped his mind in the process. He said no on Friday he can’t arrange anything because a football game is on he wants to go and watch. I said the day after we find out if our baby is dead? And he went off on one about how I was trying to stop him doing his hobbies, for context Sunday just gone he went out to watch football whilst I was at home sad, I didn’t even comment on it.
I don’t know why it’s stung so much. But it has. Can’t organise a present because he wants to go out to watch football, the day after we (probably) get told the baby is gone. I just feel a bit sorry for myself. I absolutely cried my eyes out after he said that, like proper breaking my heart, and he just walked away. I’m so disappointed, this isn’t the husband I married.
Sorry if this is total wallowing, but I need somewhere to do it. I just can’t comprehend waiting for something to die inside you.
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