MMC at 10 weeks and family weekend

[FlapJackered]

I had a scan at 8 weeks to be told my baby was measuring behind but there was a heartbeat and at 10 weeks (yesterday) the scan has confirmed no heartbeat and the baby stopped growing last week.
I am devastated and can't stop crying.

Because it's bank holiday my GP surgery is closed and my EPU doesn't take self referrals so I have to wait until Tuesday and then I have been warned that they don't accept private scans, so I am looking at potentially another 2+ weeks before they will give me any help. I just want it all to be over now and the thought of carrying my dead baby for weeks is just horrible.

I am also staying with my parents while our house is renovated and they have the entire family over for Easter. So I can't be alone and it's so hard. All I I want to do is curl up in front of the tv and cry and I can't do that because there are people everywhere. I am trying to push down the grief to get through this weekend, I just don't want to feel like this anymore.

Has anyone got any tips for getting through this weekend? I just need to stop myself from bursting into tears in the middle of lunch etc. 🙈

@FlapJackered how are you getting on? Have you had a first period yet?

i don’t know what is happening with mine.
i got a negative on strip tests of 20mui sensitivity 2 weeks ago. I ovulated pretty much same time confirmed with my bbt temps. I am due period any day.

i tested on cheap IC. Negative. Took a frer. Which is positive. But today cheap IC still is negative and I think it’s residual hormone…

keep seeing ppl say how frer is so sensitive it shows tiny amounts of hormone. How can it still be picking it up? So takes 2 weeks or more an not dropped from 20mui to below 6.5. I don’t get it.

i don’t think it can be a new pregnancy as IC is picking up nothing and then was not change today…

feel right in limbo. And if period does come when will my frer go negative?!

what tests did you use to check negative?

@Indianna2006 that's a tough one, I would be surprised if it is still residual hormones now but I guess it is possible?
I had a negative frer almost 2 weeks ago.
I would take another frer in a couple of days and if the line is darker then you know! Fingers crossed that is the case! I think that's the only way. I would stick to the same brand of frer though as they are all so different.

I feel like af is coming for me. I haven't tested yet though.

@FlapJackered oh wow so you did use frer.

i just don’t get it. 5 weeks since medical management. And 3 weeks since surgery if retained tissue. But my tests were already dropping before the surgery. Seems bizarre it would still be showing on a frer almost 5-6 weeks since passing the main lots of tissue.

as when I had my surgery the scan confirmed there was no blood supply to it. So it wouldn’t of still been feeding hcg through.

very bizarre.

my strip tests are negative though. And no change in test this morning from yesterday. 🤷🏻‍♀️

guess all I can do is wait it out. I am due my period any day. This weekend it should of been and tomorrow by the latest really

@Indianna2006 I really hope it's a new pregnancy for you! 🤞

Af turned up last night for me. I just have this dread now for ttc.

@FlapJackered i took another frer yesterday as I ordered more in the post. It was fainter. So I think it was a new pregnancy but I’m having a chemical. I’m now late for my period. But presume if it’s fading out my period may be a few days late. What a headfuck that is.

oh glad your period has arrived. Oh I know. I now feel like what on earth. Feel quite hopeful we fell. But why hasn’t this one worked either.

just want my period now!

@Indianna2006 any sign of your period yet?
Such a cruel thing to have a chemical straight after, but as you say good to know you're fertile at the moment.

@FlapJackered yes it showed up yesterday 5 days late.
yes I know. Feel like if I think too much into it worry about what that means. But as I had surgery etc maybe my lining just wasn’t upto it yet. Or it just one of them things.

hopeful for a sticky healthy bean next time. But yes who knows when that is 🤷🏻‍♀️

now the waiting begins hey. But feel like to start properly on a new cycle is better. Avoids the confusion of everything. Hoping this cycle will be more normal!