Content warnings here: pregnancy loss, talking about what happened, describing medical options
Well I've just found out nearly 2 weeks ago that our second child stopped growing after I went in for an ultrasound after a bleed, this was 9 weeks when I found out and it looks like the pregnancy stopped around 7 weeks.
I feel as if I shouldn't be this emotional about it but it's been a really sh*t situation.
I haven't completed the process on my own and my doctor wants to do a D&C now, tomorrow, which I'm booked for. I was prescribed misoprostol to help along the process but after reading about it online I just don't know if I want to put myself through that. Plus there's a chance you may need the D&C anyway with that. She explained it as a suction D&C and they do "very gentle light curettage". Whatever that means. I know what it means, but it doesn't set my mind at ease let's just say that.
It's not so much the anaesthesia I'm petrified of (that certainly does not help, but I'm more calm about it after having a real GA last year for an unrelated surgery which ended up being bliss, this is under "twilight") but complications from a D&C. I just want to try again ASAP and I'm afraid this is going to cause some sort of scarring. I asked about a less invasive procedure and she said no, she does this one to be most thorough. Perhaps it's the "gold standard" now, and I know she's not an idiot if she's gone through medical training but it's hard to put my fertility in anyone's hands.
Don't know what I'm aiming for with this post. Perhaps a handhold, or to put into perspective if I should really be this petrified. It's an emotional time and I'm desperate to try again. If anyone's gone through similar, or could offer some experience I'd appreciate it. Just mainly want to know if my fears about future fertility are warranted or if I'm just in a general state right now and everything's the end of the world. It's hard to tell. Were you able to conceive without issues straight away after a D&C (after you were cleared), if you really tried? Doctor said wait for one cycle to resume then we can start again. Can't wait for this week to be over.