Can't pull myself together

[PossibiliTea]

After MMC at 8 weeks I had MVA yesterday. It took longer that it should have so the usual pain cramping bleeding (sorry).

I just can not pull myself together at all and I'm starting to worry people. My mum got so upset just by seeing how upset I was and I can barely read my eyes hurt from crying.

They sent products off to see if there's any underlying issue and with this being my first pregnancy I am so so scared that I might not be able to go on to have a healthy pregnancy/ baby.

Is this normal? How can I feel better?

Thanks tea, yes I'm sure you're right. My work already know and are very understanding. I guess it's just hard. Not really sure what to think about. I can't get the scan images out of my head.

Im exactly the same, I paid to go private because the epu wouldn't see me and the massive screen was right there in front of me that's the main thing I can't shake off. I've got to say in terms of management the MVA was physically ok, I was worried about general anaesthetic and recovery so it was good to be home after a couple of hours.

That's useful to know, thanks. The idea of the mva scares me a lot, I feel like I'd rather have the general. But it depends when they can do it. I don't want to have to wait all week.

If you are happy with general go for it, I prefer the idea of it all being done when I'm not awake but I was just worrying (irrationally) about everything too much anyway when I've not had GA before. But the waiting is grim, I found out Thursday night and had the procedure the following Wednesday and even that was hard.

Wishing you all the best though and a speedy recovery, physically and emotionally x

Hi. I feel exactly the same. I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks after 9 months of trying. My periods have returned back to normal & we are TTC again. Im completely devastated still and just feel like i cant move on which is probably making TTC even harder. Im miserable and just feel i have no one to talk to, just like no one really understands how I feel. Even more difficult thing is that 3 of my really good friends are all pregnant 😞

SA that's positive thy your cycle is back to normal, I'm sorry you've been here too though X you can always talk to us! I'm in the same boat, my best friend has just had a beautiful baby girl and I'm so proud of her and the LO, despite being completely heartbroken. I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to deal with the time my what-would-have-been due date etc it's just very hard.

Please don't feel alone, we will get stronger with time