Demotivated

[mistbecomingrain]

All I want to do is lie in bed.

Everything this year was planned around being pregnant and having the baby.

Now it's like the rug has been pulled from under me.

The morning sickness is gone so I can do all the things I couldn't do and eat whatever I want - but I just feel sad being able to do this.

Just no enthusiasm for anything.

And not looking forward to the pity when I go back to work even though I know people mean well.

I feel the same, i just found out less than 48 hours ago that my baby was no longer with me. It just feels so cruel. We were so looking forward to having our baby and how different this Christmas would be to all others and how no present could ever be as good as our own child. Now, we're back to square one. I feel absolutely devastated. I'm trying to be as rational as possible about this.
You need to have some strong support, it's a horrible upsetting time but just having someone close to listen helps, even if they've never been through it, just pour your heart out. I wrote about my experience on this forum earlier today - you could do a personal diary entry or something instead, and it's just cathartic to get it all out of your system.
I'm heading back to work on Monday I think and just dreading the look in people's eyes, some might know, some don't, but I can't even bear thinking about discussing it.

It might sound silly but I wrote this www.mumsnet.com/Talk/miscarriage/2220711-letter-to-my-unborn-angel
to try and help myself, and it actually did help slightly I would recommend putting pen to paper to help release some of your feelings it is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with and its something that will be hard to deal with even with the most time in the world, you come to the best place for support from people who have been through the same as you

I am so sorry for your loss and the feelings ur experiencing
your definately not alone...right now I should have a 2 month old n be no where near my work at all and be having happy fun times but lifes a fucking bitch a horrible one who doesn't give a shit

I wish we could all have our babies and the crackheads on Jeremy Kyle were the only people on this site - unfair life we live