Dangers of small talk after mc

[TinyTear]

i know it's in people's nature to do small talk but good God just had a moment at work...

I sent yesterday an email to a client ccing one colleague saying "I have been off sick so will get back to you soon bla bla" - in fact I took two days off after having medical management on saturday for my 5th Miscarriage

This colleague just asked if I was feeling better, to which I said yes, and he said then "i've also not been feeling very well" and someone else piped up "is there something going round?"

I manage to control myself and just say "no, what I had is definitely not going round" and didn't go into more details...

(considering these two guys one has a 8 month + pregnant wife and the other one is gay, they definitely will not be suffering from recurrent miscarriage...)

Well done Me, I deserve a pat on the back and might treat myself to shite food for lunch...

My work have also been great, and if I wanted I could have stayed in and worked from home more (I do one day a week) but I needed to come in - even though I am being anti-social and go for lunch by myself - but at least I am around people a wee bit which helps the recovery (in my mind)

Funny how we are all so different...

One of the things I learnt in the counselling was I don't need to look strong all the time and it's ok to break down. I was trying to act like it was all ok, maybe to protect my DD and other people around me...

After mc4 I was acting all strong in front of my 2yo and that was harder... this time I told her mummy was sad and had a bad tummy but it was nothing she did... and I think she understood...

Abra1d - thanks I think I'm just clutching at straws!

Same her Tiny, I did some counselling and she told me to acknowledge the pain and grief because otherwise it will become all consuming. I don't pretend to be ok now, its easier to be sad for a bit then perk up than pretend to be happy and have a breakdown a week later.

her = here