Downstairs, I'm so sorry.
You have every right to mourn, and tears are good-just let them out.
Its rubbish for you that you have financial pressures as the same time.
The week's wait is usual- just to make absolutely sure it wasn't too soon to see anything- I know that doesn't make the week any easier.
I have had both ERPC and natural MC's.
The advantage, to me, of the ERPC is that it is a definite finishing point.
They don't put you out in the operating theatre, but in a little side room with nothing else in it, so you don't see any scary instruments or anything, just go to sleep and when you wake up it is all over.
I have mild bleeding like a light period for a few days after, and mild cramping but normally paracetamol works for this.
Natural MC's for me tend to be more physically painful and more difficult to deal with- I get sharp contraction like pains for a few hours and then a heavy period type pain for a few days and quite heavy bleeding. You can't use tampons because of the risk of infection, so you are really aware of the blood which can be hard. You also don't know when they are going to start happening, which I find quite difficult.
The disadvantage to me of the ERPC is that I have found it hard sometimes to accept it is all over- perhaps because it all happens when you go to sleep, whereas with a natural MC I somehow find it easier to get my head around, again, probably because I'm going through it. You also avoid the general anaesthetic, which I always worry about even though it is very very low risk.
So there are advantages and disadvantages of both, and only you know which is best for you. For me I tend to think the ERPC is less to deal with.
Hang in there.