crampy laboury pains, is it starting :(

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Last two days on and off I have been getting crampy pains, to the point where I am expecting spotting (not got any yet) and would definitely call someone if I wasn't already suspecting a mmc (found out last mon, gestational sac dating 4/5 weeks, I should have been 6+6; sent home and am going back for a rescan on thurs).

Today I am getting pains in my uterus and lower back which make me want to walk around and run my 'bump' (gut), like when you are in early labour :( Is this the start? Am really, really scared even though if the baby was only 4 weeks it would only be cells, but it is all the blood and just the unknown I suppose. To say that though, the cramps have gone now and I just feel silly.

if it does start, should i let anyone know? Would I call the doc on Tues and go in for an appt?

Planning wise: I have DH, neurofen and paracetomol, a shite magazine and lots and lots of heavy duty sanitary pads. Should I get anything else?! Also, will the doc likely give me a sick note for all this do you think? Am meant to be working 12 hour days on my PhD thesis this bank hols which is totally tits up. The guilt about that is stifling my ability to cope with my mc tbh. Fucking work.

deep breaths. God, I am dreading not being pregnant :(

Thanks for listening x

hey brown thanks, we are ok. Am remarkably chipper really. Waiting isn't so bad and I would always have wanted to mc naturally but for the fact it is taking so long to get started. I work from home though so is notsobad.

Is almost good having to wait as I am getting a lot of the grieving and sadness out of the way during the process, I am feeling mentally strong and prepared for the actual mc and looking forward to seeing the physical act of mc as a closing point to all this, rather than the starting point it usually is for people.

bit hungover today and waiting for me smoked salmon and scrambled egg brekky :)