climb aboard this bus called i was on "dec 11, jan 12, feb 12" etc- hear me now!!

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I thought i would just start this thread for all of us who have sadly lost our seats on our previous buses, but still want to talk and share and move on in all different areas!

Please swipe your cards, pay your fare and share!!!!!!!!
all are welcome to the journey ending in "moving on street", "TTC avenue" or "let just wait and see walk "or ", "Its finally happened for me junction"

OHHHHHHHHHHH im so happy for you Catsy i really feel like we have been on such a emotional rollercoaster and just to know of the negative tests and now your positive has given me new hope!!!!!!!!!
please tell me how many times did you test and as you got your positive last night! apart from feeling overwhelmed for you and SES, feeling ifi dont get on this month theres always next month!!!!!! AF due tomorrow but i refuse to POAS until a few days have past and still no show of AF!!!!! im confused on the daysPO thought i was quite close to SES so abit unsure! oh well waiting game still for me! of to get ready for work now!

Thanks SES and mama5!

I was due AF on wednesday last week, due to my stupid short cycle. That would have been 9 DPO. I think I tested with FMU wednesday, thursday and friday and got BFNs. On saturday morning, FMU turned up a really faint line - hard to see if it had colour or was an evap. On saturday pm, I tested again and got a distinct line, though not a very dark one. On sunday am with FMU, I did a CBD and got "pregnant 1-2 weeks". I will try to do a CBD next weekend to see if the number of weeks has gone up.

I don't really feel ill today, and am worried that I don't have strong enough symptoms for this to go the distance. I also went to my GP to see if he could prescribe cyclogest, and he phoned me back later after consulting an obstetrician to say that I didn't fit the profile for getting it, but he was happy to try and get me an urgent consultation with an obs if I wanted. I don't really see the point. I want this so much, but feel really despondent already. I have progesterone cream in the cupboard that I ordered online, and TBH might just try using that and see if it helps (well, I guess I'll never be able to prove if it helped, if I manage to stay pg, but might make me feel I'm doing something positive!!!). Sorry to be a bit "glass half full". Feels like it's been a long couple of months....

should have said "glass half empty" - maybe a freudian slip, and natural optimism slipping out!!!

Wow, so much news! Congrats SES and Catsy, really hope everything goes well for you both.

Catsy, try not to worry too much about not feeling ill. My (limited) experience - with DS I didn't feel ill at all until about 6 weeks, BFP was a big surprise at 5 weeks (thought I'd better test before 2nd glass of wine...). With latest PG, felt quite sick at 3 week, v tired but tailed off by about 7. So really couldn't tell early on.

Mama5 good luck with the move - is it this week?

Very busy here - decided not to buy a house at the moment, found somewhere to rent hope to get keys next week and move in soon after. Can't wait now - now we've decided to move just want to get on with it, and cut out commute.

Had my BFN (was still spotting a tiny bit but got impatient), think had already ovulated though so no SWI, and AF showed up at the weekend, less than 5 weeks after passing pregnancy sac. At least I know where I am though, ready to try again. Been drinking lots of wine in brief window when definitely not PG, on call or driving! In the last week I finally feel physically back to normal, so waiting and getting my strength back was probably a good idea anyway.

Thanks tumble, that's reassuring. I'm glad you got your BFN and AF - so you know everything is where it needs to be, and that you are looking to the future :)

I really should have kept some sort of diary with DD1 and DD2, then I'd be able to see when I felt different symptoms etc... I remember with DD1 I definitely felt pretty rotten by 4/5 weeks, I think I felt not as bad with DD2. Do feel a bit off this morning (hurrah!), vaguely nauseous, dizzy and tired. Have started the progesterone cream last night, and feel a bit better for that - like I'm giving the pg the best chance. I'm trying to break the pg down into manageable bits, e.g. just 2 weeks till I can phone the EPU to book my scan, just 4 weeks till I can have the scan, just 8 weeks to my 12 week scan etc, etc. DH has holiday booked next week, so I'm hoping he's planning to distract me with lots of DIY, gardening and days out!!!

How is everyone else doing this week. All packed up yet mama5???

tumble - thank you :)

Catsy - not sure of your history but as I've had 3 mc now,EPU have agreed to scan me in 2wks when in theory would be 6wks. It helps to know I've got that booked in.

Mama5 - hope your move goes well.

Puzzle - how are you doing?

All my symptoms have vanished today and so I'm trying really hard not to worry. I keep prodding my boobs but the soreness has gone. I fet awful yesterday with all over body aching. It was almost like the onset of flu but could have been tiredness. I may POAS again tomorrow for reassurance

Hi all -

So glad that you never gave up Catsy and got your well deserved BFP and you SES(sesthepregnant)! its amazing what a day can do! in terms of your testing results!
Tumble- yes you can have some idea of how to chart and get the best results!
its amazing how you can be having plenty of swi like evey other day before during and so after and miss out and have 1 shot and get it right fist time!
i guess me getting some help with ov-ing stick may have to be it for me next month! i heard the clearblue ones is good i cant be asked to look at anymore lines!!!!! apart from on the BFP type!!!!!!!
ive not moved just yet been told place with be ready beginning of the month so thats ok for me not too long!!!!! so much to do with moving, work and secondary school open days to attend! just hope want to focus on that rather then if im pregnant or not! bllllaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!
but i hope you guys are doing well! just focus on those milestones Catsy youll be ther before you know it! ok!!!!!!
Puzzle - how are you?

Thanks mama5, it's great knowing you are there encouraging me. Glad you're busy with the move, schools etc. I can't wait for DH to be home next week to distract me from the mentalling. On the ov stick front, I found the Superdrug ones worked (the only brand I ever had a positive result from!), and they were on special offer when I bought them :).

SES, glad it's not just me prodding my boobs. Seriously, I am also scrutinizing every sheet of toilet paper that I wipe with. I nearly went into meltdown earlier because I wiped and the CM was very slightly off white!!!!!! When I mc, the paramedic who went with me to hospital was lovely. She had had 4 mcs (and one surviving child born somewhere in the 20s of weeks I think), and she told me that after a mc you join "knicker checkers anonymous". My membership card is in the post. If I'm really going crazy, I might phone EPU and plead for an earlier scan. I hope your symptoms come back - in fact I hope we both feel rotten tomorrow !!!!!!!

Hi all, I'm here, and fine, just trying to keep busy and not think about things too much, you all know how it is in the 2ww....
Glad you're keeping busy too Mama.

Glad you're doing ok Catsy and SES, try not to stress about (lack of) symptoms. I know it's much easier said than done but they really do vary between pregnancies. Hope the countdown to those early scans doesn't drag too much, glad you've managed to get them booked in.

tumble I'm glad your body seems to be back to normal again, it does take a while to recover. Good luck for this cycle. Must admit I was enjoying alcohol at every opportunity too!

It's definitely reassuring to have you ladies here, whatever happens I know you'll understand. Might test on sunday morning as I've got an evening with the girls, just a book group but we do tend to glug the wine so I want to know whether to (sneakily) abstain or not.

Still no AF im !!!!!!!
Not too busy here Puzzletree, im testing on weekend if AF stays away!!!!!!
cramping has gone but, have feeling the hag will try slap me while im sleeping!

Hey, Hag, stay away from mama5!!!!!!!!!

its worked Catsy just not sure for how long still not POAS so scared too now! maybe got dates wrong!!!!!!! and worked it out wrong!

Do a test, do a test! Do you have any symptoms?

Puzzle -had some cramping a few days before i was expecting it on the 20th but nothing yet had a banging headache all day so didnt eat much! when i go toilet i keep checking after i wipe but nothing, not even spotting!!!!!!!!!
maybe i should asked DH to check for me!!!!!!!! nah on other thoughts, no not a good idea!!!!!
But how are you?

I had a bad headache and cramping this time last week, and, well, we all know what happened when I POAS last saturday!!!! Are you going to POAS soon, do you think, mama5? Oh, how exciting!

Ooh it does sound promising Mama, do you have a cheapy test to hand for tomorrow morning?
I'm feeling no signs at all of anything, but have given up on trying to work out my body these days and AF not due til next week anyway...
Glad all's still well with you too Catsy

Mama5 oh the suspense, all sounds good.... don't forget to let us know when you POAS!!! Fingers crossed for you. Also Puzzletree, would be really early for convincing symptoms, try not to think about it too much (OK probably impossible!), hopefully at your book group you'll be 'sneakily abstaining' (how do you do that??? it's a trick I need to learn!).

SES and Catsy I was already a boob prodder/ knicker checker before the MC - will probably be so much worse next time, think I'll be terrified. (optimistically hoping there will be a next time). Catsy good luck with getting a scan.

Just waiting for AF to go away so can start the SWI, which will be interesting with moving house around mid cycle. Guess will aim for efficient rather than energetic! Want to be a 3 times a week, don't worry about it girl but usually know when i ov anyway, so will try to get timing right.

Have to do a presentation at work tomorrow, worried it's a bit controversial there could be some 'lively discussion'. Oh well at least it's really the weekend!

NEARLY the weekend!!

Great to see the good news from a few of you.

My ERPC was two weeks ago today. Had the expected ten days bleeding and POAS this morning to find a BFN. Relieved it's at least all over! Waiting for AF and then going to TTC again. But alas, nearly the weekend!

Hi ladies AF got me on Friday!!!! sorry so out for another month!!!!!!
I may just step away for trying for now will have to review after my time has passed!
Million - i hope thats you last BFN for now! all the best xxx

Oh Mama so sorry to hear that, thought it was your month :( Hope you're ok. Take care of yourself.
MillontheFloss glad you got your BFN, it's so weird testing and wanting a BFN isn't it? Hope your cycle settles quickly, look after yourself too.
I'm going to test in the morning, with my last internet cheapie test and if it's negative I'll allow myself some wine-induced merriness in the evening. Will let you know how it goes...

...and it was negative. So bring on the wine, and the coffee. Not sure when AF is due, could be any time from tomorrow really. But I'm pretty sure now that I'm out this month. Not sure how long we'll be ttc, am thinking maybe a couple more months, then call it a day :(
Hope the rest of you are well. I'm trying to do my (son's) first school assignment which requires photos of him with different family members and aargh, the printer ink is running out! Fail.

Hi ladies. Congratulations, Catsy - great news. We are back TTCing again, although it always seems a bit haphazard. I thought I'd be stressy etc., but actually I just feel very sad a lot of the time. Have had news of a childhood friend who was due around the same time whose second scan showed massive disability and they decided to terminate, really really hard. And I have another friend who is due two weeks after I would have been and all going well so I can't really forget what stage I'd have been at, which I'd like to. Oh well. AF due next weekend and we'll see if it turns up on time.

I was on the feb 12 bus, my baby boy died during birth a few days ago at 19 +6 weeks we have called him Jacob . My cervix started opening a couple of weeks ago and I had a stitch put in but it didn't work, my waters broke just after they took it back out. Everything settled down for a week until I realised I could feel his feet at the tip of my cervix. My cervix had closed around his legs and we decided to induce, we couldn't bare the thought of him being trapped. I feel so bad as he was still alive even though my consultant assured us that he probably wouldnt have been able to survive being trapped. We have arranged the funaral for a week on tuesday

Moomin I don't know what to say to make you feel better but do take care. Have the doctors told you how this happened? I hope you and your partner will begin to feel better after the funeral as I'm sure it will be a bit of a limbo until then. Sorry I can't really help but I know that it must be so hard for you being half way through. I would be half way too and keep thinking that but I can't begin to imagine what you went through. Take it easy x